Hello my brother,blessings of this day!

I am now praying about a commitment at my church to join the Praise and Worship Band and Audio/Video program. Since our move to Lizard Land and my wifes commitment to her family health issues I have found myself in too much a state of complacency,and WE know where that can take us.

I am committing to getting back into a roadrunning format that entirely gives me oportunity to pray and work out a lot of internal struggles that go on with me and also renew the "high" of the endorphin energy burst that this endeavor allows me. More complacency rearing its head.

WE are working on a spiritual program and a journey toward financial peace following our faith beliefs and sacrifice.My tendancy is to try and hold rather than release and finances are always upfront for us,especiallyat the moment.Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we have not seen and my wife and I are trying to walk the walk...

And as always ,never having my eyes being opened each day without immediately giving our Higher Power(whom we call God)the glory and praise for another day of life ,free from active addiction /a 3rd/11th step early morning meditation and a plan to be all God intended us to be.Just For Today,with our Higher Powers GUIDANCE and CARE ,ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE........Lets see what todays adventures bring,truly grateful to have an opportunity to approach in lucidity....

-- Edited by MIKEF on Monday 15th of October 2012 12:17:30 PM

haha yes Dave...

Did a spot of house cleaning today. "Putting the house in order" hehehehhh..

And I certainly will be doing a half hour after dinner walk, followed by some Prayer, Meditation and Tapping......

I admire your commitment.
I have settled into a routine, but have recently felt the need to amp up my program as well.
Have been feeling uneasy lately, sort of a free floating anxiety with no root cause in reality.
Basically I've been projecting fears forward and that is always bad.
So it's back to the basics. Keeping it in the day. Much more prayer and meditation.
Making certain to call my sponsor everyday.
Attend at least 4 meetings instead of my usual 3
And be giving of myself in thought as well as deed.
This last one is especially important for my spiritual well being.
It is very easy for me to revert to being an isolated, self absorbed addict.
That is seriously dangerous for me. SERIOUSLY.
So I must interact with people in a way that is meant to be beneficial to them.
It does wonders for my spirit.
Takes me right out of myself and into the 'joy of giving' mode of mental and spiritual health.
It's funny but every major religion and spiritual guide will tell you about it being
"better to give than receive" yet it is a lesson I need to relearn on a frequent basis.
So, just for today I will be grateful for who I am and what I have, and share God's bounty
in the spirit of loving generosity.
And I thank you dearly for this thread.
peace.

The bottleneck or the gateway to a much more serene life is getting over my laziness and lazy nature.

A simple example: whenever I walk, I feel good on that day.
And these last 10 or 12 years, I have been trying continuosly to walk everyday.
Ive failed to do that.

Theres "something" that holds me back.
What that "something" is I know; it's my "lazy man" thoughts.
There can be many reasons not to walk on that particular day, or sometimes I don't walk for no good reason at all.

The best Ive done is one week of walking everyday for that week. I may have walked about 12 miles that week.
Sometimes when I go on a trek, I do many miles at a stretch. Otherwise its just an average of about three times a week, not enough to be gainful.

But I havent really committed to walking everyday. This would help me reduce weight (95 kg now, at least a 10 kg overweight), pre-empt any diabetes, hyper-tension and will generally foster a feeling of well being. Ive felt better each time I walked, and felt grumpy, angry, restless, etc. whenever I neglected this simple exercise. I believe this is associated with my being" entirely willing' to have laziness disappear from my life. At age 51 now, I can guess Ive missed many an opportunity in life because of this persistent defect.

Im reminded of a sage advice I got once " Its better to do a bit everyday than to plie it up for the weekend"

So now Im humbly asking for this shortcoming ("lazy man" thoughts) to be removed from my mind, so I can be a "free walker" !!!!!!
( and Im humming the song "Ill get by, with a little help from my friends").....
So,,,,, help me God !

-- Edited by Raman on Wednesday 17th of October 2012 06:43:39 AM