Hey Liz! was think in of you,good to see you though you seem in a tizzy to say the least.I can only say that though we may not be able to control situations that occur(life on lifes terms) we can control how we react to them....Pain shared is pain lessened, hopefully you can find a way to "free yorself" on the inner turmoil.I will keep you lifted up in prayer............If there is anyone you can help,reach out, it will help you also............
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Ditto what MikeF said. Hang in there, and take it one day at a time. Don't use, go to meetings, work the steps, talk to your sponsor and others in recovery, turn things over to your higher power. Things will get better.
Sorry to hear that you are stressed Liz, I started to preach about prayer, meditation, and turning your will over to a loving God, but you already know about this. I just wish you peace, and a reminder that truly, this will pass.