Hi.
My name is Raman an addict.
I want to share that the most visible defects in my life now is
laziness and anger.
Im lazy somehow or other and when i try and get out and be active, im getting angry.
Sometimes im thinking its because im single and at other times i attribute that
to the after effects of interferon, especially being lazy.
Fact is that at that time, in 2009, interferon and ribovarin took the wind out of my sails.
I still feel it was a cruel blow, a very late hit that came after two decades in recovery.
The Serenity Prayer teaches me that I cannot change the fact that hep.c
in my blood required treatment. And yes, i was warned tht after effect could last for upto
two/three years post treatment.
The point is this; before the treatment, whenever i was angry, i could clearly see why after
I was feeling serene again.
But these past two years, ive been completely foxed.....
I wonder if anyone here has experience, strength and hope to share......
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Sorry that you had to go through that so many years into your recovery. The good news is that the time line on the lingering after effects should be nearing an end. better days are coming my friend.
First of all,sharing whats going on is a true blessing of working our process and getting to the "exact nature" of whats going on with us.For me,I always find when I drift spiritually away from my closeness with my Higher Power my old character traits,shortcomings and defects seem to start boiling again.It is always a sign for me to "surrender" my will to the "CARE'' OF the God of my understanding and seek patience and remind myself of my true blessings.Believe me it is not always easy and I fall down and stumble a lot.WE do say 'this too shall pass" sometimes easier said then done but with a renewed vigor in our process and sharing from our heart WE do seem to get through.WE are survivors.Even after decades of clean time at any given moment,without work,I can find myself in a funk.I am in complete support and will lift you up in prayer to move forward in peace and serenity.Iwill send you a PM so we can talk ......PAX DOMINI!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I have no experience with taking hepC medications but I have some laziness and anger. For me. the 12 steps are the solution. Hang in there and keeping working.
