i'm flippin busy as heck lately and thats a blessing and a curse, but its also gods grace, sometimes you get what you pray for LOL

Plus trying to work things out with my girlfriend , the one I have come here and spoke about in the past, the one i've been dealing with for 5 years now LOL, off n on again. She's a christian now and we're doing better because of that and i'm practicing this program and another the best i can so it makes things much easier, but i'll tell yuh, it just is not easy still, and i wonder if i'm not better off by myself, and my 6 cats....

So its allll good, im having to look at things differently, take them as they come without getting pissed off and throwing tantrums when they dont go how i want or expect, go with the flow and dont be a rut in the road for other people, dont make mountains out of ant hills, practice spiritual principles and every affair and try to grow a little now and then lol

I stay close to God, if i wander i'm in trouble i have no power on my own, if my mind wanders to bad places i bring it back to that powen and turn it over, i have been having dreams about buying , smoking crack and i've obsessed to the point of almost using, but i took it to God and he saved my ass, showed me that his power can help me overcome these obsitcles and i can get past them without destroying myself some more.

I can be done just find that power to help, you'll be amazed what you can do, its a decision, a desire, a want, more then anything to be clean, one day at a time.

Happy memorial day i hope everyone enjoys life today.