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Raman


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dear Manon..handshake.gif

how do you do?

I need to share this with you, in public.  Now that you aint angry anymore, I want to clear up things some more. biggrin


Well, to begin with,,,,,,,,

confusei have no idea whatsoever  why  you reckoned that the phrase "practice what you preach" was aimed at you.. and took it so personally and were very upset.

what touched y off like that ?confused.gif 


shocked.gifI was shocked when i read your shares,,,  I was at first taken aback jawdrop.gif, but that was only a reaction. 

And then I had some thoughts

"disbeliefhohoho....dear...dear...dear...Theres been a terrible misunderstanding !"ohmygod.gif


Good God, why would I want to hurt you at all ??? clueless.gif

Think about it. Youre my oldest friend in MIP (and Vin).nod.gif. That's one of the longest friendships Ive had in my life.

We have shared a lot in this here forum.nod.gif. This sort of thing has never happened between us before.

We have been witness to each others lives nigh on 8 years.nod.gif

What did you say or do that hurt me that I want to hurt you back ??

Think about those facts. nothing stands up to examination that I wanted to hurt you,, aint it so ??? innocent.gifinnocent.gifinnocent.gif

 

And if indeed my dear friend, you were  hurt and needed an explanation, then heres one that may suffice and earn your pleasure !!!

Actually... i was generally phrasing..i was putting my angst into words. furious. It had nothing to do with you or anyone else here, for that matter.

I believe that much of addiction is a feelings dis-ease, and the simple way out is to put words to feelings, articulate, verbalise. Now, for me, a shy addict, i really need regular practice. And I love the practice, cause you know,,, this sets me free to be me nirvana.gif. State of Blissful Emptyness !


The fact is that in everyday living, i have been suffering the company/presence of various types that can talk a lot but err seriously in their action.frustrated.gif. And im left feeling frustrated !

 I dont judge or condemn them, but I need to be out of those feelings quick...

Im convinced that unless high ideals have corrospondingly appropriate actions, one loses credibility.blankstare.gif. I sincierly belive in this philosophy ! I dont want to be a phoney ! Im a real character, an addict in recovery, with real feelings. The only way to sustainable Serenity and Wisdom is to be me, even when it dosent seem attractive to the ego.

Whether in Fellowship, family, business, frienships, or society at large i need to practice what i preach..I need to be reminded constantly,,.. and I know that every time I share these ideals, I stand reminded ! 

so help me God..above.gif

and if youve been hurt, albeit unwittingly by my shares...

all i can say..

love you dear Manon..number1.gif no.1 friend...

sweet...long..kind.. king-hugs !!!bye.gif



-- Edited by Raman on Friday 25th of May 2012 02:47:03 PM



-- Edited by Raman on Saturday 26th of May 2012 12:13:49 AM

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Confusion in interpretation happens in recovery.



-- Edited by cdbuckberry on Friday 25th of May 2012 05:57:07 PM

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Awwwwwwwwwww it's an MIP love in



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that day i was taking everything personal it has nothing to do with just you or the statement i needed clarification when under all this overwhelming stres sI am going thru i tend to take things personal YOu have and always willbe important to me asd its simply an act of GOD that i am still here pysically
i read a post bashing the only HP i trust to be able to remove defects of charecter was having a bad day to start with and couldn't see the positives newhere thank you for this post i thought you were telling me to practice what i preach cause for years i have used humour to keep me sane thru the years here at MIP i was devastated my whole belief sytstem bashed i din't or couldn't think clearly in any way i am moving to a new apt on tuesday and i have been fearfull the assistance in housing wasn't going to move me fast enough
that being said I was overly sensitve to EVERYTHING
I took time awayfr onm MIP for sometime thinking i couldn't be found by doc douchebag =kelliA
I am simply overwhelmed and not making any sense in my own head let alone someone eles words things have to be broke down into pieces for me to understand atm as to why i couldn't tell you my brainisn't functioning like it should
We have been close for years and I didn't understand why you would say "practice what you preach" i took it personal i thought it was pointing at me so hurt and confused i didn't know waht to do
ty Raman love and hugs from around the world and back

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Maynard G Krebbs used to say "ah dobie,im gettin all misty!!! Love the joining of spirits in all different types of ways......Peace and serenity!smile



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whisper.gif Hi Manon,  this is a revival going on here,,, and if i dont share this, Ill be doing you a great dis-service... so I humbly submit a few thoughts for your perusal !

Yknow, its  funny how we can miss the obvious. 

The Master was very definite. His Goodself said

"Love Thine enemies and pray for their wellness".

High Ideals, easily practiced by His Sinless Self,, but for me very tough to practice. But in my own experience, it is well worth the try ! Even the mere effort can make one feel much better about oneself.

Ok Manon,, taint like the post youre reffering to was by a troll.... and she certainly aint no "enemy". The love of one addict for another is a Love Supreme,,, the LOVE THAT TRANSCENDS everyday, routine feelings ! 

But look, sincierly, inspite of initial shock, one has to practice Goddness. Behind every defect is an asset waiting to be used ! Just turn it on.....

Principles before personalities,,, the Masters Principles were the thing.....

One of the Higher Principles Im learning, that is much to my advantage is to not take offence !

And if I do, then I need to get back into the Serenity Nest asap.....

am i making sense lov ?



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ok i feel stupid i really don't understand like i said my brain isn't processing what would normally be simple

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love and hugs.. from me to you.
you aint stupid. youre bright
you aint weak but strong
those jokes you share
now thats something right
so keep em a coming
saves me from being uptight...

( u still do sugar. sweets and chocolate?
im can get really stoned on em too)

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ur beautiful sax i so love listening to you play i miss our voice chats and i wanna hold your hand!

Edit: i saved witht the others you have shard ty Raman I do miss you



-- Edited by Manon on Saturday 26th of May 2012 02:44:58 PM

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and here's one for you, from me !



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cool tune...
sweet thread

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It's stuff like this that keeps me coming back

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God keep you Blessed Don.
We need you a lot here.
i need you a lot too.
im amazed.

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dearest
Raman sign into yahoo i can send it to you there

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finally this thread makes sense ty Raman


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Nice tune Raman!

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Good to hear that Manon.



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thanks Dave, i recorded that sometime ago at home.
Id forgotten.

Then last nite, at an event, as I check the tracks on my mobile, I find this.

The first thing I thought
"gotta send this to Manon".

As y know, thats the Beatles "I wanna hold your hand"..
Next I think Ill do 'From me to you" for all the folks here.

But the first priority is to record Wonderful World as I play and sing it,,,,
including the Satchmo gruff voice take !

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