Someone finally knew the crazy thoughts that I had and the crazy things Id done.
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Addicts often feel terminally unique. Were sure that no one used drugs like we did or had to do the things that we did to get them. Feeling that no one really understands us can keep us from recovery for many years.
But once we come to the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous, we begin to lose that feeling of being the worst or the craziest. We listen as members share their experiences. We discover that others have walked the same twisted path that weve walked and still have been able to find recovery. We begin to believe that recovery is available to us, too.
As we progress in our own recovery, sometimes our thinking is still insane. However, we find that when we share the hard time we may be having, others identify, sharing how they have dealt with such difficulties. No matter how troubled our thinking seems, we find hope when others relate to us, passing along the solutions theyve found. We begin to believe that we can survive whatever were going through to continue on in our recovery.
The gift of Narcotics Anonymous is that we learn we are not alone. We can get clean and stay clean by sharing our experience, our strength, and even our crazy thinking with other members. When we do, we open ourselves to the solutions others have found to the challenges we face.
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Just for today: I am grateful that I can identify with others. Today, I will listen as they share their experience, and Ill share mine with them.
What a relief it was for me, to finally realize that I'm not alone, that there are others like me, in the fellowship! I remember telling an oldtimer in one of my early NA meetings that I'm depressed. He quickly hugged me and said "Well, welcome to the club, depression is my normal state of mind."
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.