Welcome Newcomers and those who may be here for the first time or just coming back!Welcome to those working toward that fit spiritual condition,this daily reprieve working your process to the best of your ability.
If you have relapsed,keep in mind that it is important to get back to meetings and establishing the life saving process of Narcotics Anonymous into the actions ,thoughts and behaviors of your life as you may only have months ,days or hours before a threshold is reached where we remain gone beyond recall,This is a deadly illness that needs daily attention.
If you are new, Welcome, WE are here for each other, listen to suggestions,get a sponsor,learn to identify with the disease and not compare the "war stories'.Using will eventually take us all to the same places ,jails ,institutions,deriliction or death.Just For Today ,you don't ever have to use again.Start the healing,now,make an emotional acceptance of utter defeat an admission you are an addict(only you know that answer) and that there is another way.Our message is hope and our promise is freedom from active addiction by doing the work and applying spiritual principles in all the affairs of our lives and actions..Hope to see you back...HAVE A BLESSED AND PRODUCTIVE DAY!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Yesterday i had a nap after work and woke with a craving to use like I haven't had in a long time, I even layed there planning it out, feeeding it.
I layed there and thought " Man you have got to be really really messed up inside to be thinking this, this is your addiction attacking you in some vulnerable moment, what the hell is going on inside?"
not more then 1 minute later I got a call from a member here, Bret called, I didnt want to answer matter of fact I didnt but I called him right back after realizing again, this is my addiction attacking, CALLL BRET BACK NOW , GET THE HELL OUT OF SELF.
so I told on myself to Bret, step 1 admitt i am powerless, and do something about it, TELL SOMEONE.
I went to a meeting and TOLD ON MYSELF
I did some inventory work on what might be going on, to much SELF INTEREST going on inside of me these days GET OUT OF SELF !!!!!
I need some relaxation and stress relief i have to go to the ocean and let go of all this pent up anxiety and stress from work go, at least 2-3 days, thats healing.
I have to go to the mountains and find gold I havent gone all summer, thats my meditation.
anyhow just sounding off but for the newcomer just so you know, these things come up i have over 5 years clean and sober now and shit still happens , what matters is what i do with it today, last resort I tell myself " This too shall pass, if I let it"..
