...we accept responsibility for our problems and see that were equally responsible for our solutions.
Basic Text, p. 97
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Some of us, well accustomed to leaving our personal responsibilities to others, may attempt the same behavior in recovery. We quickly find out it doesnt work.
For instance, we are considering making a change in our lives, so we call our sponsor and ask what we should do. Under the guise of seeking direction, we are actually asking our sponsor to assume responsibility for making decisions about our life. Or maybe weve been short with someone at a meeting, so we ask that persons best friend to make our apologies for us. Perhaps weve imposed on a friend several times in the last month to cover our service commitment. Could it be that weve asked a friend to analyze our behavior and identify our shortcomings, rather than taking our own personal inventory?
Recovery is something that has to be worked for. It isnt going to be handed to us on a silver platter, nor can we expect our friends or our sponsor to be responsible for the work we must do ourselves. We recover by making our own decisions, doing our own service, and working our own steps. By doing it for ourselves, we receive the rewards.
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Just for today: I accept responsibility for my life and my recovery.
yeah well thats all good but I first try meditating and prayer seeking what Gods will, guidance and direction first, above all others and myself, then hope that I can follow my intuition which I believe is given by God.
The first thing I had to do before even begining to work this program, just to stay clean was to take responsibilty for my situation. The fact that I was killing myself with my drug use and if I continued using I was a dead man, so this definetly takes som form of self will+DESIRE we have to want to stop and see a way of doing that. Many of us have just by sheer determination but thats not enough, we need more and that more is what the program and a higher power will give you if we stay diligent, honest, willing and humble.
And I had to look up and learn what every one of those words meant...:)
