When we finally get our own selfish motives out of the way, we begin to find a peace that we never imagined possible.
Basic Text, p. 45
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As we examine our beliefs, our actions, and our motives in recovery, well find that sometimes we do things for the wrong reasons. In our early recovery, we may have spent a great deal of money and time on people, wanting only for them to like us. Later on, we may find that we still spend money on people, but our motives have changed. We do it because we like them. Or perhaps we used to get romantically involved because we felt hollow inside and were seeking fulfillment through another person. Now our reasons for romantic involvement are based in a desire to share our already rewarding lives with an equal partner. Maybe we used to work the steps because we were afraid wed relapse if we didnt. Today we work the steps because we want to grow spiritually.
We have a new purpose in life today, and our changing motives reflect that. We have so much more to offer than our neediness and insecurities. We have developed a wholesomeness of spirit and a peace of mind that moves our recovery into a new realm. We extend our love and share our recovery with complete generosity, and the difference we make is the legacy we leave to those who have yet to join us.
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Just for today: In recovery, my motives have changed. I want to do things for the right reason, not just for my personal benefit. Today, I will examine my motives.
Yes, my motives have changed in recovery, but I still do a lot of things for personal benefit. I am still basically a self-centered person trying to become more God-centered.
I try to meditate on things in depth these days just so I can get Gods opinion, so I have the right thinking and motives.
This sort of thinking had a lot to do with me cutting ties with my former girlfriend, she hadn't reached a place in life that I had and I hope she realizes that a big part of the reason I cut thoughs ties were for her, i doubt she see's that but that had much to do with my motive, i'd always been real self centered before dealing with her, not this last time.
