A day clean is a day won, in more ways that we can possibly know now.
Im reminded that thge newcomern is the most important person at any meeting cause we keep what we have only by giving it away....
Id love to hear newcomer shares that define what theyre going thru; the pain, the tension etc. and staying clean in spite of all that...
Take care and God Bless..
And remember that even if the desire to stay clean is only for a day or only five hours or whatever, hours or whatever, only for a day or only forang on,,, cause that all you need now.
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I have been struggling with avoiding relapse for months now. See I have depressive and nervous tendencies, as many of us do! This year I was diagnosed with cervical cancer and have had to surgeries to become cancer free. Each visit to the doctor was like a year long wait and all the what ifs where tying me in knots, well finally I had a radical robotic hysterectomy. The day after my surgery, my aunt who is like a mother to me what diagnosed with colon cancer, and now my father is undergoing neurological and cardiovascular testing because of some vertigo he has been experiencing from unknown blood clots from his brain. On top of everything I am away from my family. I moved away from Texas to South Carolina to grow and change and it has been so hard this year for me. I feel very lonely at times because the family I have here are my in laws and I don't always feel good about sharing my negative past or feelings with them and I have yet to make new freinds, as a stay at home mom and student.
I am two and half days clean I live in Jamaica NY I am fighting a fierce ass crack addiction and I cant believe I just stopped on my even now my computer is acting up because it is 120am and Iam fighting an urge something moved me to go online and lookup meetings then I ran into this online message boards. Too bad there are not thousands of comments to help the newcomer but I am reaching out regardless I WANNA STAY CLEAN. Crack is nasty, cunning drug and can fool me if I am not vigilant in my recovery so I choose to get with other recovering addicts even if they are in vituality.