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We all have been there with the fear of that first meeting. I am not sure where you got the meeting info and location, but at times our meeting lists change. Meetings move, cancel and change times. try this link for a schedule, and if you need a ride call the hotline # on the schedule or link and tell them you need someone to help with transportation. http://www.naindiana.org/meetings.php  click the blue central NA logo

For me I truly wanted to stop and was willing to do anything to do so, I was desperate to quit. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired..Almost quitting is like almost putting on a parachute before jumping on a plane. Know what your going through, I hated the daily routine and using to. In turn started to hate myself because I couldn't stop. So the more depressed I got the more drugs I did. The more drugs the more depressed..vicious cycle. I tried to stop dozens of times, would say I am never doing that again, and I would do it again. powerlessness..I didn't like what I had become and the way and means of using and getting more. I obsessed about it all day everyday. (unmanageable life, drugs were in control) I can't stop on my own power...am I going to have enough, trying to find some, counting etc...wasting day after day.........I would wake up in the morning and say ok this has got to last for the day, and next thing I new I was out by noon, and the ways and means cycle started again..like I said in an earlier post, getting clean can be a bear, but we all had to go through the misery in the beginning. get clean and go to a meeting tomorrow, don't give up after just one meeting, all meetings are different you will find a home. a good way to see which room a meeting is in when you go is get there about 10min early and you should see ppl standing outside some where. good luck, let me know how it goes. sorry I get long winded