God I sware the past 3 years just seem to havwe a toll onmy life I have read and re read that pamplet just to make sure I am doing the next right thing not realizing just how high my pain level is atm dealing with back and kidney pain to be pain free for one day would be great I am still in the process of seeing the docs needed and doing the test there are asking me to do no matter just how packed my schedule is trying to balance mental health pysical health and my addiction it is getting to be a bit much i hatge it I hate that i have to deal wtih all this

Therapy has been going well I actually like her my therapist is really cool she is going to help me and my room mate have healthy boundries so that we can live together without major problems.

I am not sleeping well due to the pain but I get sleep when I can It could always be worse lol I hate that saying any way just thoughtI would write a bit as the cofee is brewing and getting ready for the day

I am grateful I am still alive and clean

I am gratreful to have this msg board for support

I amgrateful for my best friend and her patience

just a small gratitude list to start my day