You look at me and wonder why so sad? just glad someone noticed me as i was going mad No one ever asks why I feel so bad. for fear they will wake the monster whom resides here You seemed to have misunderstood as I told what I could. Dying to belong...has it really been that long? Years feel like minutes, yet thoughout the misery, I still want some one near to me. Always willing to try again, fall after fall, will I ever get it all? A heart waitng to be mended... pondering whether or not if I will always be by myself. Living in my sdaydreams So no one can hear my screams. Nightmares are turning into night terrors,because of the images I see as I look into the mirror and see what is left of me... Wanting desperatly to see what you see: nbeing able to belive in me. Knowing one day Love will sset this souls free, even when I am afraid to be me...no matter how draining it may seem to be. It has to be better within my day dreams Afraid you might hear my screams Misunderstood once agin so it seems Nightmares are turning into night terrors THe stares and glares are coming from everywhere Do I dare let you in? Just to be put thru all the despair again...when you realize just how much you care. When people come into my nightmare Resiliant as I may seem to appear, I still fear to let anyone near. If you look closely enough you might just see a tear. AS I fight to make my head clear...clinging to the thingsI hols dear. Pictures are just a memory, a piece of time captured only for me Reminds me of what lies behind me, some of the fears that confine me. Livinga life alone...lost in my mind with only my words that I have shared are left there so you can find me Longing to let another inside of what actually created me. Silently screaming for someone to walk beside me.
Aug 2009 Manon S.
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Manon! Keep pluggin away,better we have tried and not attained (yet).... then not to have tried at all!! There is one who is the Healer,seek to find that Power and find that peace that 'TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING!!! Keep sharing from your heart ,I also feel your pain.....no matter what "just don't use.........
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Wow what a great poem that was very touchy. you have got to have alot of things on your mind for you to be able to write a poem so good.... very very nice
