ok half of this apt is packed as I begin to realize just how long I have been here my rent here actually decreased roomie is gone which would make rent incease not a good choice on my part the other apt has more pros then cons one of the cons is payment of rent I don't know that Ican pull it off so I am at a stand still staring at a mountain of boxes some full some empty I don't know what to do this has been home for so long thatIhate to leave something so familar on the other hand the other apt is bigger and has washer and dryer hook ups I have kinda out grown this apt and the other is so much bigger and newer at that I talked to the main managers here and they saisd I don't have to leave that it is a choice for me to make I guess I will makr certain calls just to find out which part of the rent I am supposed to pay as I live in an apt that I am assisted with rent payments as is the newer one so I need to weigh things out won't be able to get an answer till monday so Iguess I will enjoy the day try to keep negative thinking out of my path till I can actuallt take action on this matter I already know the answer I can barely make ends meet here I have 2 cars that have had or needs to hav work done I need to start making payments towards the new job I have aquired will assist in these payments so I don't know i also know I can work I think 80 hours a month with out it affecting my assistance and there are day labor places here that I can do oon occasion to get other bills payed so I just need to think this thru when Ihave all the info till then hope you are blessed I know my faith is being restored daily which is kinda nice... it was wierd waking this A.M. with the couch empty which meant no one to wake up as the dog wanted out anyway I could go on on on on but I handle ppl in doses so Itry not to OD ppl on me lmfao l8r g8rs
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Hey Manon, head just runs n runs dont it LOL yeah mine too so when i get overwhelmed I run for cover, turn my will and life over and sit quietly for a few minutes kinda just absorbing that though. Taken deep breathes? meditating ? asking your higher powers will to be done because thats all your going to be able to handle, we cant handle OUR WILL its to damn out of control
The guy who rents a room from me hasn't been her going on 2 months he's not sure where he's at with his job they have him up north for now but he may be back and it doesnt get lonely here cuzz i got my cats LOL i'm in no hurry to find anorther person to live with, its quiet, too quiet sometimes butr i've been needing this.
Dont do something thats going to set you back and make life a lot more difficult, get by to get ahead.
Today is Monday! Take it little at a time,continue to turn it over to the care of and keep a smile....Just for Today! we can be all our HP intended us to be,but we gotta stay focused...The wheels they keep on turning huh!!! Have a blessed and productive day!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
