My real name is matt I am a 27 year old father of 2 beautiful girls 1 & 2 years old. and a handsome son who is 6. My wife is a great person who i do not deserve but am thankful to have in my corner, my job is good and i make alot of money......but here's the kicker...I am addicted to hydrocodone and have been for going on two years now. I am changing and i know it, i am by no means a weak person who cries for solutions but even i can't tackle this on my own. I do not have any medical problems that i should be taking them for i just have plenty of access to people that do and mostly i get them for free (not stealing) I just can't discuss how exactly but the point is i have tried to stop and i know how important it is..i mean while I am writting this I am waiting on a friend of mine to meet me with some..(I know right). I have always "hated" pills because of growing up with my parents poping them left and right and never even took anything until 2 years ago....I know it is easier said and done and at least I am reaching out for someone to push me along thru this. I have to detox but i get so sick and ill that i can't hide it from my family or job so i just keep on taking them. if anyone can give me some advice i woulod appreciate it cause I'm tired of moving to the music of a zombie dance...they just give me so much energy..ewwwww. thanks "Maticus27"
WHAT I HAVE LEARNED "HONESTY" IS ONLY GOING TO GET ME THRU ANYTHING - WE I NO LONGER HIDE, MANIPULATE THE TRUTH - THEN I START TO GET BETTER. AT THAT POINT I AM TRULY OPEN FOR HELP - UNTIL THEN SOME OF US HAVE TO GO TO THE BITTER END..ALSO NO ONE SAID IT WOULD BE EASY TO GET CLEAN - ALOT OF US HAD TO GET REAL SICK BEFORE WE WERE TO GET CLEAN - I SUGGEST IT'S OK TO FEEL SICK -IF YOU DO IT - YOU MAY GET CLEAN - AND BEING HONEST WITH YOUR PARTNER IS PROBABLY OK - IF THEY ARE IN FOR THE LONG RUN - IT MIGHT BE WORTH IT AND THEN YOU CAN BE ACCOUTABLE..THAT'S WHAT IT TOOK FOR ME - HOPE THAT HELPS
Hi Matt and welcome, I'm glad you found us here and I'm glad your reaching out for help. We (us addicts ) can't do this on our own and we don't have to..... For me, I had to go to detox and rehab, I tried everything to get clean without having to lock myself away but I just couldn't stop. I went to meetings (NA) and would use as soon as the meeting was over. The obsession and compulsion to use was just to overpowering for me. I needed to be protected from myself. I had to get to the point where I had to take responsibility for my own recovery. Our disease is cunning, baffeling and powerful, it is also progressive. Things just keep getting worse for us until in desparation we seek helf from each other, and that's exactly what your doing, be proud of your self for making that first step towards recovery.
There are consequences to drug addiction. One of them is the pain and sickness of withdrawl/detox. If you can arrange it, take a week off from work. Check into a 3 day detox unit and get off the drugs. Then upon release get to a NA meeting and begin the process of recovery. You will be amazed at the level of support a new comer can find there. Give it a try, what have you got to lose? And please come back and let us know how you are doing.
My real name is matt I am a 27 year old father of 2 beautiful girls 1 & 2 years old. and a handsome son who is 6. My wife is a great person who i do not deserve but am thankful to have in my corner, my job is good and i make alot of money......but here's the kicker...I am addicted to hydrocodone and have been for going on two years now. I am changing and i know it, i am by no means a weak person who cries for solutions but even i can't tackle this on my own. I do not have any medical problems that i should be taking them for i just have plenty of access to people that do and mostly i get them for free (not stealing) I just can't discuss how exactly but the point is i have tried to stop and i know how important it is..i mean while I am writting this I am waiting on a friend of mine to meet me with some..(I know right). I have always "hated" pills because of growing up with my parents poping them left and right and never even took anything until 2 years ago....I know it is easier said and done and at least I am reaching out for someone to push me along thru this. I have to detox but i get so sick and ill that i can't hide it from my family or job so i just keep on taking them. if anyone can give me some advice i woulod appreciate it cause I'm tired of moving to the music of a zombie dance...they just give me so much energy..ewwwww. thanks "Maticus27"
