Just wanted to share where I am at at the moment.Briefly,I have managed a facility for 'people with disabilities"a sheltered workshop,for last 15 years of my 32 year employment with this agency.About 7 years ago ,a new director hired on with a backround also in "production sub contract work.I have also received above average workplace evaluations through the years even as late as 2007.The evals are supposed to be yearly but they are closer now to every 2 years,way to long for review in my mind.Anyway through the years,funding decreases in LTSE(long term sheltered employment) income staff that have left have not been backfilled.In 2007 ,even though my eval was still good ,I had signed that I felt my job as manager was diminishing because my director was taking my role.There was a compromise and for awhile I was still managing successfully but slowly the duties were overtaken again.Directing the staff I supervised,micro managing all decisions being made,doing things that would normally be delegated to my staff.I have verbally talked with him but to no avail.I recently received this years eval and it was less than stellar.There were references to apathy,disinterest and lack of attention to job duties.(Im sure valid as I have felt that ,but tried hard to find a spot )Because of trusting in my God and always trying turn my life over to the care of and practicing spiritual principles(seeking His will for me,humbly asking to remove my shortcomings,taking personal inventory etc)I am in the process of writing an attachment referring to some focus of my of my shortcomings and I take full responsibility for some of the characteristics being mentioned but I am again going to refer to the inability to do the job I was hired for.This will most likely reach the next level of upper management when the attachment is sent to Admin, and I am now willing to make my statement and be ready to accept any consequences.(hopefully they will be positive)I have prayed diligently about this and my wife and I have discussed the situation. I really do enjoy my work with the clients and the staff..My focus is to reinstate the level that I have been working at for the last 32 years but you never know how these things go. I am also hoping that my supervisor and I will be able to work something out but not a repeat of the last scenario...I feel very blessed and confident that no matter what the outcome I am relying on honesty,using spiritual principles in my approach(compared to the Beserk Man back in the day) and hope to get back to serving the population that I work for..This has been on my mind for a vey long time and I just feel its time to state my case in a respectful,matter of fact way.Its not about my 'NEED TO BE RIGHT THING" as I continue to dig deep to see my part in this.I free myself by sharing whats going in inside and bring it to the light.I may be in the realm of chopping off my foot but if I continue on I am not being honest or standing up for myself.I do not want to lose this employment but I will step out in faith and let what happens ,happen. There is no feeling of being pushed out because of my age or time at the program...Thanks for listening,bringing internal things to the light,that are festering,for me, helps keep me healthy! Hopefully I m not working at K MART doing the Blue Light Special in aisle#3,if so then its what it will be.I keep thinking this is insignificant but its not so I wanted to release it!!! We'll See what happens....:)
-- Edited by MIKEF on Tuesday 26th of October 2010 08:19:26 PM
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
God luv ya Mike, I really can't see you in aisle#3 at K-MART lol. You stay strong and do what you need to do and let God take care of the rest, that's what we're taught and that's what I believe, who Know's you might even get a promotion out of this.......
This could be a blessing in disguise if it motivates you to do better work. Whatever happens, you'll be okay if you don't use and trust in your HP. Take care!
My aunt went into early retirement over almost this exact situation and she had been with the company 25 years, it drove her NUTZ but she doesn't have the program or higher power you have Mike, your handling it and facing it , she ran.
you know I am constantly learning to stand in my TRUTH - I can never go wrong there - if all fails I truly believe - that my Truth is good enough and I can sleep at night - oh I must be gentle and kind when speaking my truth. - HP will always hold us in the way of love and care for self.
i am sure this will come to better end than you think you do stand up for yourself and own the problem so i will pray for you brother and hope all goes well god always has a plan even if he does'nt share it with us
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some of us win some of us lose with god and this program i will be a winner
