why cant i do anything right...every cell in my body is screaming right now to go out an use...i dont want to at all..but i cant take this...im sick an tired of hurting peolpe..i feel like i should just disapper from everyone..and they would be better off with out me...
-- Edited by log666 on Saturday 21st of August 2010 10:02:09 PM
-- Edited by BigV on Sunday 22nd of August 2010 09:52:44 AM
Fight the demon,"we" can do this together......Each day clean and farther away from the substance will get you closer to "life"............keep coming back,scream out how you feel(we know the feeling) and then do whats necessary to get all parTs of your existence moving in right direction...Physical,Mental and Spiritual!!! In support....YOU CAN DO THIS.............
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Get off the pity pot and just join the rest of us in our pain LOL this to shall pass try just accepting that your life became unmanageable because of your using and now that you've stopped things , life will get better other wise your setting yourself up for failure beating the crap out of your self, give yourself a freaken break.
Step 3 turn your will and life over to God/higher power and watch him work in your life but this takes persistant willingness, if you got it you got it if not then you'll keep beating yourself up and end up back out there using and causing more wreckage.
Thanks for posting and sharing your hurts but i ask that you select your words better and not use the F bomb, thank you.
Everybody makes mistakes and has difficulties. In NA, I am learning some tools that help me not to keep repeating the same mistakes and to deal with my difficulties instead of running from them.
