My name is Jim C, I'm 47 I've struggled with drug addiction my entire life. I feel blessed though just for that fact that I'm aware of the fact that I'm an addict. I want to be clean. I kicked many habits in the past, and has some solid clean time. I went into the hospital for shoulder surgery in 2007 and was perscribed vicadin, me being the addict that I am and opiates not really something I ever got into I figured I was safe (who was I kidding). Since then I escalated to Oxicontin and have been on them now for the better part of 2 years. I'm finding that this drug for me is one of the hardest to kick. The thought of withdrawals and the depression that goes with it makes it very difficult to kick. I'm writing for help. I don't want these drugs in my life anymore, the thing I hate the most about these drugs is even when you don't want to use, I find that I must the thought of being sick is distressing for me. I want to get back to meetings I want to live right again, I'm just finding myself truly struggling with my use. My self esteem is shot, I feel like shit without the withdrawals I feel like shit because I cant' seem to say no. Any feedback would be appreciated, I truly neet some help. Jim C
Hey Jim: Go to a mtg. and let the rest happen for you, ask for the help you want in your area. i believe there's someone that will help you. that's why we have the moment of silence.
A continuing thought for me from my spiritual readings says' God's ability to clean things up is infinitely greater than our ability to mess things up.' I can only suggest,getting with your Higher Power,turn your will and life over to the care of,and feel the peace.......welcome to MIP..hOPE TO SEE MORE OF YA!!!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
