Hi, I have been taking oxocodone for about 2 years. I started taking it sporadically and now take 2-3 pills a day. Right now I am trying to wean myself off (taper off).
I am afraid of withdrawls. I dont want to be in prison anymore though.
I am going to an NA meeting tonight. I went to one a few months ago but couldnt relate to the folks there (probably my own resistance).
I know that where ever two or more are joined miracles happen so I thought I would post here for some support or advice. Thanks
welcome marye31 GLAD YOU JOINED US..Give it a chance,listen for suggestions and follow direction...We can do this together. Are you checking out medical detox? hope to hear back from you.Board a little slow right now,but more family members be on...stick around for the miracle...peace
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I know it is not easy. Withdrawals suck...there is no other way to put it. The good thing is that you only have to do it one last time.......and never again. i truly know how you feel. i got to the point where i was getting locked up every other week ( literally) and got tired of it. So i made the last time my last time, for real. I dont go meetings, and i am not suggesting that for you. i do still reach out to other people just like you are doing. We are each others best defense. So if i can help you in any way, just let me know
Dear Marye3. Like Vanleer says, you only have to go through withdrawls once. It is not easy and I am pretty sure you know that you have to do it. Sooner the better. I like Vanleer do not go to meetings anymore. I did go to rehab and meetings up until a couple of years ago. For me they helped alot. It was good to be around people that knew how fucked up I was. This site helped alot too. Good luck.
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Hi! I am very new to recovery.. and I can tell you that withdrawls DO suck. If you are serious about recovery, you should go into a medical detox. You need to be in a place where you do not have access to pills. You need your head to clear. An inpatient program is a good place to start. I'm not sure just meetings will help you right now. Sometimes we think "tapering off" is a good idea, but soon we are right back to the amount of pills we started with. I pray you will find the courage and strength to do this FOR YOURSELF. Love yourself enough to do whatever it takes to stop. God will be with you. You are reaching out, don't stop trying.
Thanks everyone. I dont think I need impatient but i do understand what you are saying about staying away from places where pills are available. Im going to the meeting tonight. I feel optimistic about doing this. I appreciate the reminders that I only have to do this once. I know there is freedom and happiness on the otherside. I am praying alot and have noticed that since I really made a decision to do this it seems possible. Thanks everyone for your comments and suggestions.
You have received some great advice so far. One of the biggest hurdles I had to overcome was letting go of persons places and things that were connected to my old life.
Hi Mary! I hope you made it to a meeting last night. I agree with what one person said about meetings and being around others that understand you for who you are. Try to not go in there with to much expectations. That is always my problem to much expectations. Then when it doesn't all happen the way I want it to, I get more upset and more depressed. Try to be gentle with yourself. Be patient and kind. Remember it's not going to hurt forever. The withdrawals are bad..Yes I was addicted to Oxcodone and Oxycontin for many many many years and it took a lot of courage and patience to finally get 2 years clean. 1 day is a miracle though and you need to remember that. Don't go into the rooms comparing yourself. No 2 addicts are alike. We tend to forget that and look at other people and wonder why you can't be more like that person. That will only bring you down. Stick with the winners, Stay away from the gossip and LISTEN. It's a tough road but it is so worth the rewards that follow. Thanks, MaryJane
Hi Mary! I hope you made it to a meeting last night. I agree with what one person said about meetings and being around others that understand you for who you are. Try to not go in there with to much expectations. That is always my problem to much expectations. Then when it doesn't all happen the way I want it to, I get more upset and more depressed. Try to be gentle with yourself. Be patient and kind. Remember it's not going to hurt forever. The withdrawals are bad..Yes I was addicted to Oxcodone and Oxycontin for many many many years and it took a lot of courage and patience to finally get 2 years clean. 1 day is a miracle though and you need to remember that. Don't go into the rooms comparing yourself. No 2 addicts are alike. We tend to forget that and look at other people and wonder why you can't be more like that person. That will only bring you down. Stick with the winners, Stay away from the gossip and LISTEN. It's a tough road but it is so worth the rewards that follow. Thanks, MaryJane
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