IN THE LAST FEW DAYS - TO BE HONEST ITS BEEN OVER A WEEK - I HAVEN'T BEEN TAKEN CARE OF MYSELF - JUST RUNNING MYSELF RAGGED - I NOTICED - I AM SHORT -TEMPERED MORE OFTEN - LACK OF SLEEP - DON'T WANT TO BE ANYWHERE - EXCEPT UNDER A NICE ROCK (NOT SMOKING ROCK) NO TIME FOR LAUGHTER, PLAYING OR EVEN CUDDLING - AGITATED, FRUSTRATED - (SO YOU GET THE JUST OF THIS) - EVEN THOUGH MY LIFE IS GOOD AND FILLED WITH GOOD THINGS AND I DO ALOT OF SERVICE AND GIVING - BOY DID I PUT ME ON THE BACK BURNER - AND I AM PAYING FOR IT NOW - TRYING TO GET CENTERED AGAIN - AND STILL FUNCTION - SO I HAVE DECIDED THE NEXT FEW DAYS - INCLUDING TODAY - IT'S ALL ABOUT ME - TIME TO STOP AND SMELL THE ROSES - BEFORE I BE APART OF A ROSE BUSH - 6 FT UNDER - WHAT REALLY ALERTED ME WAS - THAT I WAS READY TO ISOLATE - (GET AWAY) - MY SPIRITUAL SELF HAS LESS OF GOD IN IT. AND THAT IS A RECEIPE FOR DISASTER - I KNOW WHERE I GO..SO THE MESSAGE IS - EVEN THOUGH DOING SERVICE, AND GIVING - IF I AM NOT SERVICING MYSELF AND GIVING TO MYSELF - I END UP BANKRUPT - AND TODAY I WANT ALL I CAN GET - AND REAP THE BENEFITS - NOT BENEFITS OF UGH'S - SO MY NA FAMILY I THOUGHT I SHARE MY INSANITY - BUT MORE SO MY RECOVERY..
Finding the right balance of work, family, friends, NA meetings and service, self care and fun is one of the challenges of my recovery today. When I get out of balance, my life gets unmanageable. I hope you can find the balance that works for you.
i can relste in so many ways my thoughts and prayers are with yoou brother from another mother
