ya knoiw I heard somewhere there is nothing to fear buit fear itself not really I can't tell you where Iheard it but it stuck. I don't really understand the statement but I feel fearful as I see other "mes" come out and in front of ppl I saw my mothers reaction to when I switched she was petrified I had another suicide attempt recently... And after seeing the way my mom looked at me I am scared to be around ppl at all what if they realize or notice supposed to see shrink friday so many ?s but he won't tell me too much for fear of me being overwhelmed by medical terms (gotta love google) I saw my reg doc yesterday I am losing mucle my prtien is low and I am dehydrated a bit I relapsed as well been drinking like a fish found me a boyfriend that liked to hit me so we know where all that wentit has been a rough month all around gonna ask about med change Friday but my other doc says if I continue losing weight he will wanna tube feed me Ever since marcus followed me here life just keeps throwing more and more oon me I am not sure how much more i casn handle well enough for now ttys
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Hi Manon, I'm a history buff so I know where that statement came from. In the early days of World War 2 the British people were being bombed daily by the Nazi's. The war was going badly for them. The British prime minister, Winston Churchill was a very strong speaker. He gave speeches to the people over the radio. It was he who said "We have nothing to fear but fear itself" He was inspiring the people to believe in themselves and in ultimate victory. He was warning them against letting fear erode their spirit and weaken their resolve. It is a good lesson for all of us to remember. Peace to you.
Stay close Manon,it is important to remember"YOU ARE SOMEBODY" I can not and do not pretend to know what you are going through only that I will continue to lift you up to the God of my understanding and pray for your strength ,serenity and health.You know where I am at if you need to share.............peace ,for real..!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Manon,Keep strong,take care,you have to drink plenty of water or liquids so you don't get dehydrated.You have to remember there are a lot of people here that care about you.Fear can be scary.Just remember eat and drink lots of liquid and I hope the higher power stays there with you ever minute of the day.
When I think of fear I remember that most of the things I'm afraid of, already happened. I'm afraid sometimes too Manon. I'm learning to trust the process, but I'm still afraid sometimes.
More will be revealed is a good chapter for me to read when I wonder why I'm going through stuff or someone doesn't like me and I don't understand why. Chaper 10, isn't it?
I am grateful for all your support will fill you in on the doctors visit it has been one of the roughest years I can remeber don't know if Iwanna remember anymore not yet anyway thanx family
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Manon just go back and read all of the incredible loving inspiring posts everyone wrote about you and don't ever let yourself forget them because they are all true. Please try to see yourself as we do. Until I entered recovery I had no idea what fear truly meant to me or how afraid of myself as I am. I realize now I am scared to death of everything. So please know you are not alone. Please take care of yourself. Your always in my prayers.
Stacey
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The Will Of GOD Will Never Take You Where The Grace Of GOD Will Not Protect You
