my name is aubrey. i've been clean since may 14, 2010. it's been 44 days. i went into rehab on may 19th and i was released on june 16th. i've been going to meetings almost daily. today is the third day that i've missed a meeting so i decided to find support online and came across this site. i'm trying to figure out how to work all of this. any help or support would be great! i have court tomorrow, and i'm very nervous. this is a time that i would normally go get high but i know that i can't. i'm very worked up right now. :/
-- Edited by aubreyxrae on Monday 28th of June 2010 10:08:06 AM
Welcome! 44 days is huge. Early recovery is a bumpy road for sure. It will take time to untangle all of the knots we tied around ourselves. But it does get better. As you learn and become more accustomed to facing life without drugs the days will grow brighter. I'm so glad you found us. We need you more than you know. Please make the effort to get to face to face meetings....they are the most important thing you can do right now. And absolutely keep coming back here. Let us know how your doing and share to your hearts content. Peace.
Welcome back into life!! We are glad you made it here,we have been waiting for ya!!! peace...keep coming back let us know how its going(especially after your first meeting:)
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Great to have you Aubrey. A meeting a day for at least 90 days has already been suggested and I'll add that it's ideal. Hearing the same thing over and over can take some getting used to. I found it difficult in the beginning to hear all the same old stuff again and again. Now it's like music to my ears. It reminds me "Oh yeah, there is a way out of your thinking Joe!"
I connected early with the chapter "What can I do?" The answers I needed were in italics on p.52. It's moved now in the 6th edition but the answer's the same.
I've been clean a long time and found this board some years ago but it took getting back into some old self will and a negative place in my head to run me back here a few weeks ago. I stay on line most week days. I also make 2 to 3 meetings a week now and stay in touch with phone, text and Facebook addicts.
thank you all for showing me the support that i need. i've heard the 90 meetings in 90 days thing and i've been doing well so far. i'm still working on finding a sponsor but i have plenty of phone numbers & a few people in mind to ask. i wanted to ask my #1 pick yesterday but i had to babysit so i was unable to make it to the meeting. i do have her phone number though and if i don't see her at the meeting tonight, i think i'll give her a call. it's hard being young (i'm only 20) and trying to stay sober. all of my friends still do the same things i was doing before rehab. i know they'll learn eventually but it's still hard. they don't understand why i can't hang out with them and why i'm distancing myself from them now. i understand that it's just because they're still in that self-centered using mindset but it's still rough. i don't like being accused of being a bad friend simply because i'm trying to be sober and do the right thing. other than that, life is okay so far. i enjoy being sober and having productive days like i'm guessing normal people have. my best friend just keeps telling me that i'm hurting her and i wish i could make her understand. i have court at 1PM today and i'm terrified. my life is getting back on track now and i'm worried that court is going to knock me down and make me want to give up. i guess i just have to keep a positive and open-mind and realize that once i'm done with the consequences of this, i have the rest of this good life i've finally gotten back to look forward to. i just wish i didn't have to go. i'm worried. :( but thank you all for your kind words, they really helped.
yep the suggestion in the book and what most folks say is 90 meetings in 90 days - reach out, don't pick upin between meeting, pray to something besides people, places and things and all will be fine -
It is hard when your only 20. As you see your friends, even the well intentioned ones are pressuring you to go back to the disease. Don't do it. When your friends complain that you are ignoring them, turn it around to recovery...Invite them to hang with you at an NA meeting. Make it clear that by you choosing recovery you are not abandoning them. They are welcome in your life, it's the drugs/alcohol that are not. Keep coming back here and letting us know how your doing. We want you to succeed and will do all we can in our own cyber space way to assist you.
Hi! I am new as well. I hope that everything with your court date went well for you. I have had to go to court several times and I know how nervous you can get. That is awesome that you have been clean 44 days!!! yay! :) I know what you mean about friends. Most of the so called friends I was hanging out with still use, so I have stopped being around them. They don't understand and it can be really tough sometimes. I hope you have a great day!
Hello!! I too and new here. I am trying to find other support systems and this is looking like a good one! Other people who understand what your going thru and uderstand support and understand is very important. I have recently started going to meetings and got a sponsor! I look forward to chatting with you and seeing you along your journey. I will be sober 30 days on 7/8 I am excited about that!!! Good luck! Keep the faith and your head up and look to your higher power to show you the right way.
If you question which way to go on a road turn one direction and start going, if you don't feel peace then turn around and go another direction for its when you feel peace you know you are on the right road!
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If you question which way to go on a road turn one direction and start going, if you don't feel peace then turn around and go another direction for its when you feel peace you know you are on the right road!
Welcome Aubrey, I was told when I was new that those times when I'm highly prone to pick up again are exactly the times that I need meetings the most... You've made 44 days clean, that's a great effort, please try to capitalize on this wonderful start, by making more meetings, everyday if you can...
I remember as a newcomer, I used to make meetings as if my life depended on it, and yes it sure did. Just like I could not stay away from using even for a day, I could not stay away from a meeting even for a day, 'come hell or high water' (yes that's the exact words I kept telling myself whenever there arose a multitude of reasons making it almost impossible for me to make a meeting
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