as most know I have been dealing with extreme drama in my life the past year a little over I wanted to say thanx to all that supported me thru the hell  Iam still going thru due to after affects... Cool thing is I showed up at  my shrink (the good one) with everyword the man that tore my life apart and shreddded it as to let go and give it to god I have held on too long...the t-shirt ripped and torn to shreds by my hands...have to admit that was a great release I don't feel bound to something that is not real anymore anad from what I am realizing never was it was all manipulation. 
Letting go has never been easy for me escecially with matters of the heart...I am one of those tht can love without judgement that truly love you but my self might be a different story I don't even in actually becaause of my DID who is actually functioning most of the time yesterday I had realized a fuckin year has past and I didn't know it my mind must have went on vacation while Istayed here air headed lol!
But I think I finally grasped let go and let god! progress not perfection right?
  I realize what was done to me was not only illegal but abusive asI am dealing with the after effects daily
My doctor is very proud of the things andfd progress I have been making...I figured if there is no way out then I might as well make the best of it!
stay tuned more will be revieled