therapy wasn't as bad as I thought it would be wee are starting slow so things won't be so intense when we talk about the past year and its secrets that come with that. Soon sureal won't fit anymore it will be real that is the part I feaer hte most the reality of what happen between me nd this other proffesional She stated she saw me switch on several occasions with out my notification. She wants me to write 10 things that help me release my anxiety anger and other difficult emotions at this point i am avoiding large crowds so not to have to explain where i have been or what has happened I am at a "safe" distance from everybody... this computer at times I am afraid to even turn it on due to what i might find...my life is full of fear and i have to go find a stuffed animal so when in therapy i have "safety". the therapist I am seeing has a phd and has dealt with my "kind" b4 and explained something just by observation that I wear partial due to belumia as I was younger ate the back of my teeth. i had never thought to even think that far back just thoght i was loosing my teeth due to lack of care I guess that is all I feel comfortable saying MAYBE IF YOU COULD TELL ME WHAT "YOU" DO TO RELEASE YOUR EMOTIONS SUCH AS FOR ME IS WATER OF ANY KIND
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Hey Manon! so good to hear from you!Glad your new therapist seems to be working okay so far. Are you feeling better taking a little break from the board here? Got a little weird here for a bit ,but the family worked things out in a recovery mode and for a group of addicts who'll usually complicate making a ham sandwich:) we did okay,Gods grace basically saving the day.. The message is still hope and glad to be part of it. Continue to work out your fears and let us know how its going when it feels right. As far as emotion release for me , I find real peace in prayer,physically I love banging on my drums,like to lift light weights,run(been not competing for a minute)and laugh out loud whenever I can,simple but it helps me,sometimes even letting go of a primal scream in an area by myself is relaxing,looks a little insane,but oh well ,they already netted me off the street once in a straight jacket and put me in the loony bin so I no longer fear that:) ,By Gods mercy I have been free of that insanity for awhile..My wife just called down and said we were accepted for a house we were trying to rent,as closing for our home sale will be within next 3 to 4 weeks.We are excited and a little anxious,but its all good and we trust in our process.Okay Babbling now,I used to tell you STAY UP,meaning remain positive,then you told me you werent sleeping so I;ll say continue to stay positive ,wish you peace and keep you in prayer..Im out
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Hi Manon, Glad your started with your new therapist. I hope you find the healing you need here. As far as me releasing my tension.....I pray alot....and I when I get real antsy I ride my bicycle. feel better sweetie.
Manon wrote:She wants me to write 10 things that help me release my anxiety anger and other difficult emotions
MAYBE IF YOU COULD TELL ME WHAT "YOU" DO TO RELEASE YOUR EMOTIONS SUCH AS FOR ME IS WATER OF ANY KIND
Glad it went well for you Manon, I remember finding a lot of clarity and direction from the talk therapy sessions that I underwent a few years back, in fact, being in regular touch with my counselor and having these talk-therapy sessions with her once every week gave me an opportunity to work on myself with the support of another person. I overcame a lot of my fears and blocks in this process. Every week I had a few things that I try (not do) inspite of my fears, just as an experiment. The more I tried these suggestions/tasks in between the sessions, the more I felt better. I started finding my real self, I found myself adapting well to practical living and daily situations better, I discovered that there's a lot that I could actually do which I had labeled as something impossible for years. I did have anxiety issues, even a panic attack or two when I had to travel long distances by bus, the heat, the noise, the crowd, my workplace where I had to be with almost a 100 people, the tasks I was given at my work that required a skill-set that I did not have, the learning... everytime I got worked up and felt like giving up, I noted down such moments and what led to my feeling so, went back to my counselor and talked about it. Sharing it all helped me continue in the process for a week more from where I was...
Also, this helped me a lot when I took a Sponsor and started working the Steps soon after these counseling sessions. I felt comfortable with my Sponsor, in having a working relationship with my Sponsor.
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Oh yes, 10 things I could do to release my difficult emotions... let me see...
Praying is the first tool I resort to. It's not actually praying in the formal sense, it's more like having a talk with my Higher Power, sharing with Him about what's happening, and then asking for the strength and directions...
Applying the Steps on my situation helps, be it my emotions, issues/conflict with others, my own obsessions and the urge to act out on them... it helps to admit that I cannot control or manage and to open my mind to a Higher Power who could help if I turn over myself and my feelings to Him.
Focusing inwards instead and inventorying also helps me to find out why I'm feeling the way I do. Diving deeper in to see where my emotions got triggered and by who or what, and why, gives me a pathway to acknowledge and address my feelings, instead of acting out on them or deny/suppress them. I have come to believe, through my stepwork, that certain thoughts or emotions spring up in me for a reason, that they are there telling me something. The moment I listen to what they're saying and pick up what my Higher Power wants me to, they do subside giving me a newer spiritual tool to practice over such situations from thereon.
Writing about it helps too.
Making a meeting or logging at an online NA setting such as this, and sharing about it is also helpful.
My ex-Sponsor once thought me a simple method of relaxation, a meditation based on breathing. I've found it to work amazingly well if I give 10 minutes to it whenever I'm tense, angry, scared, hurting or anxious.
Also, as a general suggestion, I do have a hobby over which I spend time every day, using this as my leisure pursuit, to unwind from the daily grind of life that might stress me out into getting overwhelmed emotionally among other ways...
Listening to music helps...
Walk-about is another activity that helps me.
Thanks for asking about this list, I never have made such a list before and doing it now reminds me of all the options that I can take into use instead of blowing my fuse emotionally, I have a strong tool-box to fall back on I guess
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
Manon,It is good the therapist is working so far.You have to learn to trust her to.Sounds like it is going to help.Take care girl. 
