"Just for today, I will have faith in someone in NA who believes in me and wants to help me in my recovery."
Basic Text, p. 100
Not all of us arrive in NA and automatically stay clean. But if we keep coming back, we find in Narcotics Anonymous the support we need for our recovery. Staying clean is easier when we have someone who believes in us even when we don't believe in ourselves.
Even the most frequent relapser in NA usually has one staunch supporter who is always there, no matter what. IT is imperative that we find that one person or group of people who believes in us. When we ask them if we will ever get clean, they will always replay, "Yes, you can and you will. Just keep coming back!"
We all need someone who believes in us, especially when we can't believe in ourselves. When we relapse, we undermine our already shattered self-confidence, sometimes so badly that we begin to feel utterly hopeless. At such times, we need the support of our loyal NA friends. They tell us that this can be our last relapse. They know from experience that if we keep coming to meetings,we will eventually get clean and stay clean.
It's hard for many of us to believe in ourselves. But when someone loves us unconditionally, offering support no matter how many times we've relapsed, recovery in NA becomes a little more real for us.
Just for Today: I will find someone who believes in me. I will believe in them.
My first sponsor ,a mid 70 year old man,definitely saw some life left in me and walked me through early on.He loved me until I again learned to love me self..He yelled,called me irresponsible,said I wasn;t trying hard enough,was making excuses,can't hang out in the barbershop without getting a haircut,man the truth "hurt so good"Hated it ,but loved it..... God rest in peace Bob,I miss you,but I try and carry on in your spirit of love and caring....(well I have somewhat different approach!!!!:)
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
