OK GUYS - GOTTA GET IT OUT THERE - WELL THIS WEEKEND IS ONE OF OUR NA EVENTS / PROM - 6TH ANNUAL - SO I ALWAYS TRY TO LOOK SHARP - ALSO THIS IS THE DAY OF ME AND MY PARTNERS ANNIVERSARY TOGETHER 2 YEARS - ALSO MY MOTHER IS VISITING - WHAT'S GETTING MY GOAT - I AM NOT PREPARED - I DO THIS EVERY YEAR - TOTAL STRESSED OUT - WHAT TO WEAR, WHAT GIFT TO GIVE - BECAUSE I AM SO GRADIOSE - AND GOT THAT LOOK GOOD THING STILL GOING ON - I AM ON SPIN CYCLE - I SPOKE TO MY SUPPORT - AND THEY REMIND ME TO KEEP IT SIMPLE - JUST FEELING A LITTLE INSANE, PRESSURED AND OVERWHELMED. I KNOW IT SOUNDS KINDA OUT THERE - BUT THIS IS WHERE I GO - MY ATTITUDE HAS BEEN SHOT TO HELL - I AM AT WORK JUST READY TO GO HIDE - I RATHER BE AT HOME UNDER THE COVERS WAITING FOR THE DAYS TO GO BY. MY BODY IS TENSED - FEEL LIKE I CAN'T BREATH - WHAT I HAVE LEARNED AND BOY IS IT HARD RIGHT NOW - GO TO A MEETING - (I DID) REACH OUT (I DID) BREATH (I HAVE NOT) CALL MY SPONSOR (I DID..BUT NOT ABOUT THIS) PRAY (I HAVE NOT) DON'T PICK UP (I HAVE NOT) - SO I GUESS I HAVE A FEW OTHER THINGS TO DO - I WILL GET BACK TO YOU GUYS LATER AND LET YOU KNOW HOW I AM FEELING AND IF MY ATTITUDE HAS CHANGED..KEEP ME IN PRAYER -
Breathe, meditate pray a bit, easy does it keep it simple and easy and go with the flow no pressure flow and try and enjoy the moment.
I drove 5 hours yesterday to see my Dad I HATE driving the highways but i kept it easy even missed the off ramp to his house went 15 miles before realizing it but got there calm.
It's our attitude about things the less we make a big deal the calmer we stay so no big deals man, make it fun....
I hope you don't want to strangle me after saying this Terry, but you sound like most girls/women do before prom night. I think it's adorable. So sorry if you think I'm stereotyping or trivializing your very real concerns, but maybe Mike can back me on this ....when a man reaches his 60's he feels like everyone's grandpa. I think you are right where you should be. I suspect your prom and visit with mom will all work out just fine, with you just being you.
Hey Don! thats funny ,my wife who is never really adamant on too many things says to me other day at work"please don't call me dear ,it makes me sound like a grandmother!!She is only 49 ,,,I really started to laugh,thats right she's not a grandmother,thats kids,grand kids and great grand kids thru my first marriage!!Good thing they don't allow marriages at 13 like in cowboy days ,I'd be rolling Jimson weed and starting a nursery!!! :)
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Hey Terry!Only thing I can think of is,Stop,for a minute,reflect back to where you could be if it wasn't for this EVENT , a Narcotics Anonymous function, compared to preparing and stressing searching for that 'next one" Savor the celebrations,your anniversary and the function.Enjoy the time with your mom.your partner and the prom,your gift can be you having fun and sharing that with others,let them feel your joy.One thing is for sure ,we can certainly complicate things huh!Can't wait to hear how you 'danced all night and had the best visit with you mom in a long time.And oh yeah,that gift you got was so cool!!!!!
-- Edited by MIKEF on Sunday 25th of April 2010 11:36:37 AM
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