"Many times in our recovery, the old bugaboos will haunt us. Life may again become meaningless, monotonous, and boring."
Basic Text, p. 78
Sometimes it seems as though nothing changes. We get up and go to the same job every day. We eat dinner at the same time every night. We attend the same meetings each week. This morning's rituals were identical to the ones we performed yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. After the hell of our addiction and the roller-coaster craziness of early recovery, the stable life may have some appeal - for a while. But, eventually, we realize we want something more. Sooner or later, we become turned off to the creeping monotony and boredom in our lives.
There are sure to be times when we feel vaguely dissatisfied with our recovery. We feel as though we're missing something for some reason, but we don't know what or why. We draw up our gratitude lists and find literally hundreds of things to be grateful for. All our needs are being met; our lives are fuller than we had ever hoped they'd be. So what's up?
Maybe it's time to stretch our potential to its fullest. Our possibilities are only limited by what we can dream. We can learn something new, set a new goal, help another newcomer, or make a new friend. We're sure to find something challenging if we look hard enough, and life will again become meaningful, varied, and fulfilling.
Just for Today: I'll take a break from the routine and stretch my potential to its fullest.
Morning Don! Absolutely waitng to break out my 21 speed ,get on the trails,start running more specifically toward racing.Also making meetings in different areas,different people etc.Probably heading down your way in a few months(I'll touch base with you,would like to maybe hook up?)we go to Deerfield beach,bout 30 miles North of miami!Wife's parents there.If we ever sell our home that will definitely be a shakeup!!Spend time with my sponcee's and planning our every quarteR "SPEAKER JAMS" our' Men Do Recover ' group putS on in the area..Change of weather in upstate New York here definitely help us to "bloom" like the hosta!!!Make the most of today my friend!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I took a walk around my block a few mornings back just to break up the monotony need to keep doing it and stretching it out to more blocks. I feel it this morning same old same old I have a few things to do but nothing I HAVE to do lol being on workers comp doesnt leave much responsibilty other then get to therapy 3 times a week but I have made some prioritys, just haven't had much fun since i have to becareful what i do with ths knee until its healed, i'm half way there.
I get bored real easy and fast i have to make up some excitement in life or i get glum LOL were going to our gold claim in yosemite tomorrow so that should be interesting and different. I also like trying new ways to connect with my higher power a few nights back i found a station on my cable with some real mellow music so i listened to it low and read the 12x12 then meditated on the reading and whats been going on in my life and i got a lot from that.
"Our possibilities are only limited by what we can dream. We can learn something new, set a new goal, help another newcomer, or make a new friend. We're sure to find something challenging if we look hard enough, and life will again become meaningful, varied, and fulfilling."
Reading this today gives me lots of strength and hope. I did learn something new today in my hobby pursuits. In fact, I started this day differently. I left home early in the morning, drove down outside town, and visited a hobby friend. Spent a solid 2+ hours chatting with him, discussing our subject of mutual interest. Came home for lunch, had a severe bout of my hep c related body and limb ache but fortunately as it so regularly happens, a friend from the fellowship called. I Invited him home in the late afternoon and again as it usually happens we ended up discussing all things spiritual and earthly, till 8 PM in the night.
Today, I got a big payment from one of my buyers with whom I had been patient for more than two months. My firs impulse was to go on a shopping spree, get a new mobile phone, a pair of shoes maybe, and some books, music and movies. Instead, I chose to settle 2 big loans, sent some more for my mother's medical expenses and towards my sister's needs. I'm loan-free today, I've contributed in my own small ways to my loved ones' wellbeing, and I'm left with some for myself
Just like today's JFT says, there's no doubt that everyday in recovery could be different than how it usually is, I can act saner with some program in my life, for a change
