"The Demon"

I'm begging for forgiveness for the things I've done to you
I can't explain the reasons why I do the things I do

A demon lives inside of me, a wicked evil beast
And when it is awakened it's not nice, to say the least

I don't know where it came from or when it slithered in
It slumbers now but I can't say when it may wake again

It's fangs are sharp and venomous, it's eyes are dark and cold
It's made of pure hostility and viciousness untold

Jealousy and rage, like blood, are coursing throught it's veins
So toxic is this demon that it's damaging my brain

Because the demon dwells in me we share a face and name
But that is where the likeness ends, for we are not the same

My heart is big and filled with love, the demon's heart is black
And while I'm nonagressive, the demon will attack

When I first met the demon it wore a lovely skin
And it spoke in tounges of angels, and proclaimed to be my friend

Just like an enchantress, it tempted and seduced
And it's beauty was so blinding that I could not see the truth

So I believed the lies it told me and the promises it made
And I embraced it, never knowing I was soon to be it's slave

Very quickly it consumed me and we became as one
But still I didn't realize the damage it had done

Once it was inside of me it settled in my heart 
And it cast a spell upon me, and my world was cold and dark

So I lived that way for many years, and did as I was told
By the demon who had robbed me of my spirit and my soul

And when I peered into the darkness I was scared by what I saw
For the beautiful enchantress wasn't beautiful at all

As I stared into the demon's eyes I began to clearly see
The evil and the wickedness that was staring back at me

So I shouted to the demon. "Go away and let me be!"
But it snarled and hissed and told me that I never would be free

Then it turned it's wrath upon me and it cut me like a knife
And I saw the mass destruction and the wreckage of my life

I threw myself upon the ground, for I was in agony
And I cried out for my savior to come and rescue me

I wept for all the pain I've caused and the wasted time I've spent
And I cried out, "God, forgive my sins. I humbly repent!"

Then I heard the Lord speak to me and he said, "I hear your plea.
My child I've waited years for you to say those words to me."

"Your sins have been forgiven, I have answered your request
No longer will it torment you, the demon is at rest."

"Now take my hand but don't let go, for even though it sleeps
If you stray from me and falter you are sure to wake the beast."

So I put my hand inside of his and much to my suprise
The darkness started lifting and the sun began to rise

Now my hand is firmly clasped in his but still I lightly tread
I dare not wake the demon, for it surely isn't dead

And sometimes it still calls to me in that same seductive voice
"Remember all the fun we had? I was your drug of choice!"

So I pray for strength and courage, and gently pat the demon's head
"Today my drug of choice is God, so you just go on back to bed!"

                                                                                      Lisa Gaye Boyett


 

-- Edited by lisagaye on Friday 12th of February 2010 12:59:48 AM

-- Edited by lisagaye on Friday 12th of February 2010 11:17:33 AM