Hey Keli! How are ya?  Literature tells us that we would not wish the disease of addiction on anyone,but fact remains that we addicts already have this disease and further without this disease we may never have embarked on our spiritual journey!!We will accept the fact of our addiction and pursue the blessings of recovery..I believe(for me) God knew before we were here,which way we would go and where we would end,...I understand that I am who I am today  because of who I used to be. a growth I must work on daily...   .Have a blessed and productive day!!.