why is it everytime I have something to say it is about an emotion or a feeling? i have been feeling depressed the last couple of days and am having a difficult time coming to terms as to why i am feeling this way. I am putting myself down in my stinking thinking. Ie.. I am a 40 year old balding overweight good for nothing. i am on antidepressants but it doesn't seem to be working that well the last couple of days. i don't know what to do. i am fealling out of touch with my sponsor and have stopped doing work on the steps. I feal like I am so close to a relapse. I don't want to use anymore. I feel like I am really in the grips of this illness Today and i can't seem to get out of it. I am glad there is a meeting I can go to tonight.
Hey Dave! hang in there and make sure you get to share how you are feeling tonight and I would suggest searching out some people afterwards to talk with.No matter how far we are along in recovery we all have "bad hair days'!Depression aint no joke,may want to check with your MD and see if there needs to be an adjustment. I believe we all are Gods children and therefore defineitly good for something!!!Most of us werent and maybe not even now brimming with high self esteem, that also takes work.Find someone that seems to be struggling even more than you right now and try and offer assistance any way you can.It may help you take your focus off you and put it on someone else in need of help.let us know how its going,family is here for you....peace
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Ok Dave, You did the first right thing, you got it out there. Then your gonna do another right thing, go to a meeting, So far so good. How about getting on the phone with your sponsor or another recovering addict? then try going to the basic text and reading some of the stories. Keep reaching out, and remember this too shall pass. When in doubt....pray. If you don't feel like praying then pray for the willingness to pray. Or just talk to your power. He is there. If you don't believe it, then believe that I believe it. God bless you brother.
hi...can't help but notice that your tag line is a bit of a contradiction to steps 2 and 3...might be worth some focus there...also, if you have a good doc who understands addiction & depression, may be time to give him or her a call-steps 2,3, & my doc usually help me work through to a better state of being when both of my disorders are dragging me down into the danger zone
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