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I know what i have now too


Borderline Personality Disorder, i fit the criteria PERFECTLY i am one sick muthuh fooker.


I have to get back into counseling i havent been going to that anger management group lately but thats where i belong along with in the rooms of NA and AA..Its going to be ok i am going to get a handle on this and become someone different then what i have been, I have destroyed the last relationship i will destroy, hurt the last good person I am going to hurt I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED AND DESTRUCTIVE..

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I got on google and did some research punching in a few words and this popped up for me and i believe God himself wanted me to see this just so i could put a name to all of this madness and get some help. Im meeting with my sponsor today to go over my 4th step and im taking all of this with me and get some help deciding what i need to do and i will have other people helping me this is just to much for me to handle alone, im so overwhelmed and lost and in fear of remaining the way I am.




The Criteria for a Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis

BPD is a pervasive pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and emotion, as well as marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:

* Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment

* A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by extremes between idealization and devaluation


identity disturbance: Markedly or persistently unstable self-image or sense of self

# Impulsive behavior in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating)

# Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-harming behavior

# Emotional instability in reaction to day-to-day events (e.g., intense episodic sadness, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)

# Chronic feelings of emptiness

# Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)

# Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms

dentity Disturbance

* Experiencing frequent changes in sense of self-worth (for example, one moment feeling okay about yourself and then next feeling that you are a bad person)

* Feeling unsure about identity (for example, feeling like you don't know who you really are as a person, or what you believe in)

* Feeling nonexistent

Impulsivity

* Engaging in impulsive behaviors, such as going on spending sprees, having promiscuous sex, driving recklessly, abusing drugs or alcohol, binge eating, or breaking the law

Suicidal Behaviors or Self-Harm( I DONT DO ANY OF THESE SUICIDAL THINGS )

* Making suicide attempts or gestures

* Threatening to commit suicide to communicate emotional pain or to see if others care

* Engaging in acts of self-harm without intending to commit suicide (for example, cutting or burning yourself)

Emotional Instability

* Experiencing intense negative feelings in reaction to day-to-day situations

* Feeling intense sadness, irritability, or anger that may last for hours

* Having frequent and intense mood changes (for example, going from feeling okay to feeling totally despairing in a matter of minutes or hours)

Chronic Feelings of Emptiness

* Often feeling empty ( A LOT LATELY I FEEL TOTALLY EMPTY)

* Feeling no emotions or feeling as if there is nothing inside

Inappropriate Anger

* Feeling intense anger that is stronger than the situation warrants

* Having difficulty controlling anger (for example, often yelling at others, being sarcastic, breaking things, or getting into physical fights)

Stress-induced Paranoia or Dissociation

Having some or all of the following experiences in response to stress:

* Feeling that others are picking on you or are trying to cause you harm

* Having a feeling that people or things are "unreal" or experiencing episodes of feeling "zoned out" or "numb"

* Feeling emotionally dead inside



* Often imagining or believing that others are leaving, even when they are not

* Attempts to avoid abandonment (for example, physically clinging to others when they attempt to leave)

Unstable Relationships

* Having intense relationships with lots of conflict, and/or breakups

* Having frequent arguments with friends and loved ones

* Experiencing ups and downs in relationships (for example, going from feeling as if you really need someone to feeling as if you need to get far away from him or her)

* Often feeling disappointment in or even hatred toward loved ones

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Hey BiGV!you know what we say"learn your disease"!Looks like this BPD got a "lot of steps" to it.....Work them just like working our spiritual principles.Use your support group,add some if need be,and continue to focus on our 11th step.We can seek and pray for understanding of God's will for us but only God can give us the power to carry it out.Take each one,just like "being entirely ready to have God remove the defects,humbly ask Him to help in these areas.Your feelings are human and sharing them can help you even more identify why you are feeling like you do.You also may be stubborn feeling that 'you can man up " and handle the situations but some things this BPD portrays may need to be addressed by 'professionals"If you had Diabetes you may need medical help in that area!..We are here for you Vin and I am personally available if you want to talk or write etc whatever..Thanks for sharing man,its not the people in the most pain that always get the help,it is the people that ask for it that do!!Peace, let us know how you are doing...... Mike

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HEy mike i talked it over with my sponsor and my back up sponsor did some reading in the 12x12 step 1 powerless and unmanageable . I talked with some guys at a meeting and several of us are all experiencing the same stuff this may be a very common trait for our disease at least thats what im thinking and this is the stuff WE dont like facing and THIS is where a lot of people end up relapsing. I worked part of my 4th step tonight I have some more in depth work to do and a few good folks to add LOL.


Practice these principle in ALL OUR AFFAIRS and thats what im going to have to do use the program in all aspects of life and living, its a whole new way of living man and it aint easy teaching an old dog a new trick but it has to be done.

Thanks Buddy for the support rough day today but got through it, gods working in our lives i'm learning man more each day and its going to be ok easy does it keepin it simple as i can.

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Amen ,Vinnie! One of my spiritual readings tells me"be anxious for nothing but in everything thru prayer and supplication with thanksgiving bring your petitions to God and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your heart and mind!!Having sponsors,support groups and people who really do care in your life is something we didnt have when we were "out on the tiles"'learning about ourselves with help is truly a blessing,.scary and not always joyful but the basis of our growth!Peace my friend have a blessed and productive day!!smile

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i hope it all works out for you vin i told you i get tired of all the labels but i guess they have there place and i hope you stick to the counciling i have been going to therapy for 2 months now and the difference is very noticeable to my fam and i feel better than i have in a very long time

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yeah...tuff stuff...those of us with co-occurring disorders (about 60-80% of addicts/alcoholics, based on which stats are used) have complexity on top of complexity. But it's great to know there is help and hope even for the worst of it, IF the practitioners are well-trained, well-educated, and well-experienced in dual diagnosis and treatment. If needed, appropriate professional help can be literally life saving. Gotta watch out tho, for the ones who don't have up-to-date knowledge-some of 'em can do more harm than good. For me, it's all about balance (which is kinda funny with borderline or bipolar LOL).

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HAH Lee i hear that but it can be done millions are doiong it every day so can we.


Thanks Rock its always good talking to you thanks sorry i miss half your calls bleh

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At least you recognize this and are willing to work through it. Not an easy thing and even more difficult to admit.

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good points from Lee. :)

V - i understand the need to know what the hell is wrong with me, and have to be really careful about googling in search of the answers and have learned to leave it to the pros. bottom line is that i'm a recovering addict.

i think my biggest disorder is called 'first thought wrong'

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Cyclist_Steve wrote:

good points from Lee. :)

V - i understand the need to know what the hell is wrong with me, and have to be really careful about googling in search of the answers and have learned to leave it to the pros. bottom line is that i'm a recovering addict.

i think my biggest disorder is called 'first thought wrong'



OH SHIT NOT FTW steve man are you a sicko LOLOLOL

 



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Hey its all good when we work the program and get out of self all this shit goes away and gets replaced with good stuff, its gonna take awhile but who's in a hurry now anyhow disbeliefaww

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