January kicked out of my house and moved in with my friend.
Feb i came upon this site and tried the first time at being clean. couldnt get past a week.
march i turned 18, got arrested for the second time. 3 weeks in jail. first trip to treatment.
April left treatment after a month. and continued using.
may got arrested again. lost my license for 3 years.
June GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL! haha, road trip with my friend to maryland, DC, Pittsburgh. Lobbied for the kids in uganda. Almost succeeded in killing myself. a coma for 6 weeks. second trip to treatment.
July became an aunt the first time.
August finished treatment successfully. started college. Found out i had heart disease, became an aunt the second time.
Aug - now in and out of the hospital.
October had to put my poochie down.
November started using after 4 months. horrible thanksgiving with the family. got a sponsor.
December finished my first semester in college. ran away. found out i was pregnant. had an abortion. stopped responding to heart meds. depressed as fuck. using more and more each day. buttttt im clean today and thats all that matters.
its been a rough year. but tomorrow i get to start over and not fuck up as bad as i did this year. anddddddddddddd jan 1st = diet time. hahaha
RIP to Alexis Munici Jan 3rd 2009. went to school with her. murder by drug overdose.
and to those great celebrities who also passed this year. DJ AM, Andy Kessler, Billy Mays, Brittany Murphy, David Carradine, Ean Evans, Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, Henry Gibson, James Whitmore, Jett Travolta, Les Paul, Michael Jackson, Oscar Mayer, Patrick Swayze, Steve Mcnair, The Rev, Natasha Richardson, and i think thats it....
Welp happy fucking new years everyone.
TURN UP THE SOUND
and ps i could just pick one michael jackson song
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
LizC If you have heart disease that can kill you faster than using.I had five heart attacks from using and even more angina attacks.I was told after bypass surgery I had to take meds for the rest of my life for my heart problem.This september is 15 years since heart surgery.On 1/10/2010 I celebrate 5 years clean thanks to a simple non-religious program known as NA.I used for 39 years before I came out of the cloud I was lost in.
Hng in the Liz sorting it out I see LOL stay with that sponsor keep working at this ONE DAY AT A TIME thats all we have thats HOW we all do it stay willing stay honest stay open to Gods will in your life, all these things make us willing PAIN PAIN PAIN my year was GREAT and HORRILBE at the same time i look at what i got today stay in this day stay clean and you will get to see tomorrow clean and feel good about you.
FAITH MAKES ALL THNGS POSSIBLE HOPE MAKES ALL THINGS WORK LOVE MAKES ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL !!
