ive been thinking a lot and thats never a good thing. tomorrow is the day i get a life ripped out of me. is it the right choice? i dont know. but its happenening. i really cant go through the process of being pregnant even if i was going to keep it or put it up for adoption. so ive been thinking about that. my mind is racing making lists of the pros and cons over and over a million times and its just a continuous cycle that goes on all day unless im sleeping. and i just want it to stop and be over with. so its been an emotional day and tomorrow will be a very emotional day and so much is going through my head its making me so stressed out and my anxiety is soo high. i just really dont want to have a panic attack and i cant even focus one writing this. ive been trying to write it for about a half hour now. i cant do this. help.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him
"We have surrendered our will and our lives to the care of a Power greater than ourselves. If we are thorough and sincere, we will notice a change for the better. Our fears are lessened and faith begins to grow as we learn the true meaning of surrender. We are no longer fighting fear, anger, guilt, self-pity or depression. We realize that what brought us to this Program is still with us today and will continue to guide us if we allow it. We are slowly beginning to lose the paralyzing fear of hopelessness. The proof of this step is in the way we live".
TRY doing this for this situation Liz I use this step often in times of distress and fear, JUST TRY it and keep saying the serenity prayer in your head when your having bad thoughts I do that too. I also suggest doing an inventory of whats going on and how you FEEL about it and how it effects you, this is the MUST work we do we couragously take a look at all these things and how it effects our lives and how we can possibly change some things or simply accept them and find some peace with it Liz.
This is an extremely difficult time for you. Being emotional is totally normal. Is there someone going with you? I hope so. I agree with Vinnie. This is a good time for total surrender. Let go and let God. Peace.
[Click here to start writing your quick reply.]You are in my prayers. God is Good. All the time.
The pain and guilt of life, clings to the soul like anchors made of lead how can we dance, or leap, or run? Heal it up, lay it down, let it go...
It makes a hard shell around the heart so love cannot get in or out or beat fully, unhindered Heal it up, lay it down, let it go.
It takes the color out of fall the sweetness out of spring the warmth out of summer Heal it up, lay it down, let it go.
No need to drag this burden through countless years today's world gives help to heal Heal it up, lay it down, let it go.
Free the feet, so you can dance and spin and leap high enough to grow your own wings Heal it up, lay it down, let it go
The shell drops off our hearts. it can beat freely and fully love can flow in and out unhampered Heal it up, lay it down, let it go
Fall's palette can come alive spring can sing again summer's sun can shine Heal it up, lay it down, let it go.
Arms and feet, heart and spirit, once free reach for and carry joy instead of grief, peace instead of pain, love instead of loneliness. Come now, it is time heal it up, lay it down, let it go. God is good, All the time.
