god \i am in a rock and a hard spot I am not sure what to do Ijust found out not to long ago that my "best friend" has been keeping things from me now this is a woman that has been in my life for the best part of 16 years. I already have trust issues after what happen between me and my old shrink now the person Ifelt like \i could tell everything to doesn't trust me enough to tell me the truth her and her husband are talkin aboput divorce.. she finds my lifestyle fasinating due to all the attention I get but as Ihave stated looks only gert you so far Iam sick of one nighters and being alone in my sleep or for everyhing..since aug she has been working for me here in my home takin g care of the things i can't she does this well buut my god I am tired of her I hate to say this..someone is always up my ass I want to b alone... I love her and her husband and don't think I can be in the middle of this. My apin doc did more injections today don't want to talk about how many this time but Iknow that it hurt like hell still does can't raise my arms to save my life increased my pain patch and put my pain meds back like it was b4 this weekend he will b lowerin g the patch again next month and informed me that i need to handle strees amnagement I don't know what to do back to my best friend she is the only female that I hang out with and there is prolly 3 more other ppl in my life as friends or ppl I can count on.. I don't wanna cut off my nose to spite my face using principles b4 personalities in this case is rough I need a break as far as the DRAMA part of my life I have a meeting soon tha is about as detailed as Ican get with that atm things are coming at me fast not knowing what to do the pain doc is sending me to get xrays tomorrow for a disk that seems outta place I am overwhelmed and not sure how to hanle life at all right now wanting to remain in the solution and do the next right thing but have never been good with ppl can some one with ppl skills please tell me what to do if you have ?s just ask I will answer you I need help and fast!!!!!!!! I am calling my shrinks office in the am as well to see what we can do for stress management and see if Ineed to go in for med change inpatient
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U know no one can (or will, or should) "tell you what to do"...but here's two suggestions: (1) breathe...slow-in, slow out- & repeat, while you quiet your mind, and; (2) take 'em up on the stress management thing...it might really make a huge difference. Best wishes...sounds awful, sorry u r going through this.
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Divorce is an extremely painful process. There are often alot of false starts, attempts at reconciliation, etc. It's a painful roller coaster ride of powerful and conflicting emotions. It is so intensely personal that people often keep it to themselves untill an absolutely final decision has been made. Give your friend a break. She needs your support.
Hey Manon! sorry for your pain! I ask my HP to bring you relief.As far as your divorce situation ,its tricky.I have been divierced twice,First time my 40+ year old (now))children were involved and my sister -in-law was watching them while I went to work and school at night.kids llived with me till they moved to Texas,was hard for that family because they loved us both(1st wife and me)Iwas still very active and that really complicated things,2nd divorce similar deal ,same friends,trying to draw sides and remain equally available but that doesnt work.Peole had to be hionest with me and let me know that it was too difficult to be in the middle of these breakdowns and they offered help from afar(PHONE CALLS,ETC)i NEVER REALLY DID HAVE ANYONE TO TALK WITH AS all my friends in circle of addiction were all as disfunctional as me.Does this help you?<probably not but I would suggest letting both parties know that right up front you "cant be in the middle of this,you love them both.Be availale for support if needed but try and make sure its not"one against the other" routines,you know 'HE DID,SHE DID ETC>>>>Ask your HP for guidance and "listen" for the answers..It is very painful and parties involved end up sometimes doing things so far out of character that even surprises themselves.Pray for them both,hope there are no children involved..my 1 and a half cents!!talk to you later,hope you feel better...
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Im glad you are going to a meeting and sharing how you feel here. I agree with Avid, BTW. I also agree with the slowing down and breathing. Prayer helps, too.
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