dunno why today but I was just realizing just how I have spent the last year running from my "DRAMA" it is almost 2010 just a little over a month it has been a rough one that is for sure, with promises of love from a man that can't even post under his real name but swares what he says is true...I look at all that I lost trying to make things better. I almost lost my life on 3 different occasions bcause I couldn't handle the "DRAMA" or what has to come with that... I have been DRAMA free for almost a month and Ihave to admit life is easier up until today I have been so detached then this afternoon things really hit watching "sex in the city" movie of all things to start bawlin thru that is the movie I decied to fall apart thru...but I see this as an awakining I am not sure how long these emotions will last but I know this is real I have wasted a year of my life to b honest it seems like last month I don't know where the time has goneIjust know it has.........all Ican do is cry this is the longest I have cried since Ihave been home from the hospital or since this happened my new doc says what Iam going thru is surreal that had to be explained to me but once it was I could see it quite clearly in that sense real but not real fantasy like yea that fits... as Itype I don't know whether to cry more or put my fake smile ack on and act as if??????? who knows if Iwill write more on this subject if I do you'll know I am sure. ty for a place I need to be real.......
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
A very ancient wise man once said "the secret to health for both the mind and body is not to morn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles. But to live wisely and earnestly in the present moment." All we have is today Manon. Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery. It sounds to me like you were releasing emotions today that you have been chocking down for a long time. Celebrate life one day at a time. Thank you for sharing. Avid.
Hi Manon! I truly believe that God gave us 2 great gifts,tears and laughter.Both are emotional releases...Let them come and feel the release...Good talkin to ya
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Nothing is wasted that brings us to our good and precious selves, drug-free (hopefully) and loved in fellowship. We have a new life, every day, and it took every bit of the former life, every day, to get here. What we see as waste may save someone else's life. How awesome is that?
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
