Hi friends. Been a little bit since I have written anything , and I wish could say that my HP and I have it all worked out. I know that my faith is still intact and deep in my soul that eventually I will see the light. God (my HP) will show me that what I was trying to will was the wrong way and reveal to me the way its supposed to be!
I have 2 major issues going on right now, and Im not dealing with either very well. We have to move in the next 2-3 weeks and as of right this second, I dont even know where we are going! We fell behind in all the bills(rent etc..) by a paycheck-paycheck and a half. That puts us still owing this months rent and by the time we can pay it it will have like 277 dollars of added fees and my husband refuses to pay it! so im looking to quickly move anywhere for now! okay so im all upset over that and then thanksgiving is coming up, of course we all know that!
My ex and I had a big fight, some of you may remember, over something to do with him lying to his wife, and me opening my mouth and telling her. which I honestly didnt do on purpose! Okay ,so that had NOTHING to do with my girls. Since then, I have not been ablke to get a hold of anyone by phone. I sent him a message reminding him that I have Thanksgiving this year, and no response at all!!! I know they were going ahead and making plans for the holiday like he always does! He has denied me twice on my requests to get my girls, and jsut seems like he thinks he can just cut me off completely! no phone , no picking them up (well he is supposed to meet me half way but thats a joke!) No answering any of my texts, emails NOTHING> So I call the police for that county and tell them i have written orders that say I am supposed to have them and he says "well, I dont know, that falls into civil and family, and I dont know that we can do anything" I HAVE PAPERS IN FRONT OF ME THAT STATES IN DETAIL WHEN I AM SUPPOSED TO HAVE MY GIRLS and it says that a peace officer may us e this order to enforce! I am so so upset you guys I cant think straight!He hasnt ever dont this before . I mean he has taken them to his moms or somethintg on a weekend i requested, which is bad enough ....but now just cutting ff all my communication and not even telling me whats going on!!How can he get away with this! I know someone s going to tell me o take him to court now! We know I am going to try to get custody, but I have to gte my shit straight first. move, get ready for them school district wise and all that...... My mind wont stop racing.....
"In quiet moments of meditation, God's will can become evident to us. Quieting the mind through meditation brings an inner peace that brings us into contact with the God within us." pg 46-47 basic text.
You can't control the actions of your ex.
If you can slow down the blitzkrieg of thoughts racing through your mind you may open yourself to a calmer, more effective frame of mind.
It may be time to "Let go, and let God"
peace.
-- Edited by avid on Sunday 15th of November 2009 08:18:48 PM
Hey Carol! NOT THAT IT HELPS YOU ANY BUT WE ARE ALSO GOING THRU some storms right now and I have not been battling but praying.For me thats stuff cause after all these years I still think im mr. fixit!! Like Avid says,dont let your mind run away on you,that is our worst enemy,the what ifs,if only i coulds,.stay close to people in recovery and although sometimes not what you want to hear"my spiritual readings remind me "that this too shall pass"I pray things will work out for you,take them 'day at a time" .get a place to stay,then go forward with next of lifes bombarments.we are here for you! Just for today you can find peace
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