I decided that i needed to comitt to AA and NA and to myself to work on my recovery more thoroughly, the way its suggested we do it and that means make meetings daily and sometimes more then just once a day, I got a sponsor last night and have started working on the steps. Today I had one on one therapy session which is considered outside help and will be going back to the groups I had been going to because I can get the same thing in the therapy groups for free rather then spend $110.00 per sesssion with the same therapist who runs the meeting  DUH....

I am reading our literature and using a work sheet on step 7 and i have turned my shortcomings over to my higher power and am taking responsibility for work i need to do myself. I also started reading a book called " A new pair of glasses" and so far just the begining of the book blows me away its describes the addict so well so perfect its a must read i'm sure and have been told this by several people in the program .


I have taken a whole new attitude with the program of recovery, I am reaching out and making friends I am helping in the meetings I am talking to new comers and I can tell you all this i feel SO MUCH BETTER I have SO MUCH MORE HOPE and I am HAPY with my recovery today, finally .

Theres a long road ahead this is life long for us and i have finally accepted that certain fact that I had not accepted before nowand it took hitting an emotional spiritual bottom to get here and i'm gratedful I didnt go out and use becuse that was next on my agenda and I nearly have many times in the last few months I just thanks god I didn't use at least and got willing and honest and open minded enough to get REAL with this program and myself.

Anyhow i just wanted to share where i am at today so thanks for reading , love you all brothers and sisters in recovery this is a wonderful thing we have at our disposal, we can either use it or lose it i choose to use it today rather then go back to using and huritng everyone around my including myself today , Blessing.