We lost are dog a week ago. she had a heart ache and a stroke. my son ask me is my stroke going to make me go away from him. i told him nope i'm stay right here with you. i haven't been clean for 28  months for my to go away from my boy. i had a tumor in my brain that block the blood to go to my brain so i had a blood clot that laid to the stroke. the good news is that the tumor wasnt cancer. i'm still having the chemo just in case. since i had cancer in the past. nothing is going to take me down without a fight. i'm going crazy sometimes. somedays are better then other days. the chemo is tough to go though. but when my boy hopes in the bed with me and reads to me i know that it is all worth it.
but two years ago july 6,2007 i would have never thought that i would get to the point where i wanted help. yes, i can honestly say that now without i doubt. if it wasnt for the cops that day giving me that chance. i would have last everything i have because i would have keep going on the way i was. i admit that back then i was more affraid of dying from cancer than dying from a overdose. which i did do after i found out that i had cancer the first time. the cops found me on the streets and took me to the hospital. that day change my life they took my son away from me. but was nice enough to give my son to my sister.  which i will always be grateful to her for that for the rest of my life.
i have been clean now for more then two years and love life even though i hit ups and downs sometimes. but thats what life is all about take the good with the bad.