Well right now I am going through some very tough times.My mother has been given anywhere from two days to when ever to live.At 92 we will not put her through surgery again,She is not eating,she has Alzheimers disease , but she is happy rather than sad.She is very religious so I know God is waiting for her with open arms.It is a real test for my cleantime going through this.I will not use,no matter what,or I will end up there beside her.Thanks to having a good support group of addicts both here in N.H. and up in Maine were my parents live with my sister,I have someone to talk to when needed.
HEY CDBUCKBERRY! My thoughts and prayers for your mom,you and your family.Great thought pattern man,these are definitely the 'spots' where we have to know where we could go if not diligent!! I sincerely wish you peace....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I know without a shadow of a doubt that my Hp is working (which for me is GOD) because of things I all of a sudden see and understand ,about me, that I have been in denial about. Denial or just simply didnt understand. When I check my intentions especially. When I give up the controls, all of a sudden things become more clear. For instance, the custody of my girls. I have checked and double checked my motives.I am confident that I am "okay" with why I want custody. At the same time, it has become clear to me that there are ALOT of issues about my ex-husband that need to be addressed. For the benefit of everybody-me, my husband Dave ( who has the patience and understanding of a saint )and my three little girls. Some people might see it as Pchycho-babble. I ask GOD to reveal to me which way to go;to help me do the NRT . When I do this and I am LISTENING, all is well. Even if its not how my clever little controlling addict mind thought things were going to go!
We can learn alot from Cds mother!! God Bless your family. Please contiue to talk to us.!! ! I cannot even imagine what it must be like. I would think that it might be a comfort to know that she is ready? I know when my uncle passed, the thing that stands out the most in my memory is how he used the time to prepare US. Letting us all know that he is ready to go, that he has lived a full life, etc..He was only 42 so how could he say that!? I didnt understand. I am an only child and do not want to even think about when something happens to my mother. It will bring me comfort I know if I am sure that she has prepared herself and made her peace with God. You and your family will be in my prayers. God Bless
