that i am sorry for bursting out on vini the other day. i dont really why i was so angry or wtf is even going on. my mind has been in the clouds lately and im having a hard time remembering what i even did yesterday. so i just want to apologize to vini and everyone. if i get pissed off at you dont take it personally im not that mean of a person. promise.
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Liz! WE LOVE YOU! I wish I had some words of recovery wisdom that comes to mind, but Im running a blank right now. Please dont let your outbursts and the anger that follows (rightfully so right?) keep you from coming back. Try to remember that we are not here to judge you, to ream you to something you did wrong , or any of that bs. We are here because we are all addicts. We are all here because we are sick in the way we think, act, and react. The good thing there is we have a way to better ourselves.That is the program of n/a! Right now, Im as sick as i was when I started! The only difference is I have you guys! You have anger issues, I have denial issues.... but we all have issues!! Thats why we are here ! I understand . So does the rest of the people here. I hope I am not speaking out of turn guys! When we say to you that what we hear is this or that.....please remember we are only trying to help you,and never to hurt you! You are struggling,& so are we. Just in different ways. Thats the best part of na if you ask my opinion!!! We are safe here. Even if others dont understand at first, eventually our hp will lead us to do the right thing. DNRT. Love that slogan! Life would be so awesome if everybody in this world lived by that....what a perfect world it would be! But the world is not perfect, and we are only in charge of our own action and thoughts,and if you get technical were not even in charge of that! Our HP is! If we let him. Speaking just for myself, I think you just did TNRT by saying you were sorry.( And Im glad to see you!!!!!!! )
Hey Liz! we all got things goin on "were addicts working recovery!!!Thanks for your thoughts for us but lets just say you werent having a good moment!!yes we love you because we all share similar battles.You felt a need to say you were sorry so progress not perfection is the road were on...good to hear from you!!!I am a "newbie" here on this forum but I can feel BigV saying"ahh shoot man,thats cool!!!!
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Hey little sis no big deal I get pissy and always have my friends forgiveness so thats what friends are for sometimes to let us vent a little and we dont have to like what people have to say i'm learning that, lots to learn still just stay open minded and honest with yourself, admit when we're wrong and change the behaviors and its all good in the hood LOL
haha Carol i am the same way. i always smile and laugh at vini's posts. thanks guys i did feel the need to apologize and i feel much better now that i have. i just got a call from the vet an hour ago and my poochie has kidney failure and probably won't make it through the week. she hasn't been eating but i've been forcing some food down her throat. shes 11 and im not ready to let her go. so ive pretty much been crying for the past hour and a half. i figure if i dont talk about it i wont cry, but then when shes gone it will be bad. so i choose to talk about it so i can cry and prepare myself for the day. i dont know what else to say or do. except cry. so im going to go make something to eat cry and squeeze her for the rest of the night.
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I am so so sorry to hear that. I dont have any animals right this moment but I had a cat that I had to let go...years ago. Its almost as hard as letting your kids go. :( us old folks understand that lmao.
Life on lifes terms is a fact of life. We almost always have/had the first instinct to cover up those feelings as addicts. I think its awesome that your finding a way to talk about it, feel those feelings and work through it. Way to go!
