Mornin Tisa,good to see ya! When I called my NARANON sponsor last week and told him I wouldnt be there that night and if he would ask the 'group" to keep our family in their thoughts,he suggested that I NOT ACT TOO QUICKLY WITH MY SON AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR ME,NOT PROFOUND BUT TO THE POINT... I realized that his experience in the "fellowship" came from years of learning"to let go and let God"!I talk it but in the realm of co-dependency I aint walkin it!Each day I strive to thank God(My HP) for just being here and try and continually surrender my will(get out of the way)so I can get help I need. I have watched him for last 3 years,basically every thursday night working his experience for over 20 years!
-- Edited by MIKEF on Friday 23rd of October 2009 05:43:33 PM
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
My sponsor is an awesome woman! I have great respect for her. When she tells me what she was like in her active addiction days,I almost literally gasp...her!??? Her experience has shown me that anyone can do it if they work the steps and have a spiritual connection of any kind(her words). It was her experience in relapsing that had shown me the truth of the matter when I began to deteriorate. When sh relapsed 5 years ago, it was also in her bahavior and not actually in the using. She noticed my nonsense way before I did, and gently but consistanly tried to get me back on track. She had been there, told me all about it, and yet I still didnt notice how sickly I was getting again. How I wasnt practicing my principles. I wasnt walking the walk( and am still not if I am honest with myself about it!)
But through her experience and through my knowledge of how great my hp is, I know I can live life again without this much pain. Like Mike, that surrendering is a big one for me. SO for now, Im just trying to walk that walk, surrender, face reality of what is really happening to me and my messed up head, and reach out. I know it works. All the experience of thousands upon thousands of n/a members shows me it does! I guess thats my basic answer. I rely on the eperience of all the other n/a members to keep me clean!!!!!!! Love and friendship Carol
I try and use the experience I have learned from others in the program to apply it to my everyday life.I know I sholud share my experience strength and hope with others ,I was lucky to have been given it myself.
Wise is someone who can learn from ones own experience,# but wisest are them that can learn from anothers !
I have had recent experiences where walking when feeling weird has helped. For the record, Ive just returned from a pilgrimage that includes a 10 mile walk at nite round a old hill. That inspiration came from others experience.
However, that said, i believe I can only be taught by experience of another by wanting to experience it for myself !
In case of walking, it is an attempt to replace laziness and anger, negatives with a positive experince; walking !
Whereas another can share that with me, I need to experience the Miracle too !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
