thanx family I realized a few things while I sat in ICU for 3 days... 1: who am I to play god... I sat and watched as ppl died fighting for their next breath as I was willling to give mine... 2: the looks on the faces of those I was willing to leave behind... 3: A child so consumed with fear of losing his mother... 4: a best friend reading a suicide note and not hearing from anyone to know if I was alright... 5: a very tired mother sitting by watching to see if her eldest child was gonna die... b4 she does... 6: reading the posts of friends I have had for years seeing the kind of love I would leave behind... 7: the affects this selfish addict has caused all the way around...
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
yeah reminds me of the time i spent 3 days in a drunk tank, yeah the cops were pretty pissed off at me for being a mouthy bad ass, they wouldn't put me in the cell block so i watched a helluva lot of insanity walk in that tank every night and it was a weekend so i seen some unreal shit LOL
glad your home theres nop place like home thats fur show
Hey Manon!! I am so so sorry for all the pain your going through but so happy to see you here! Us addict need a reality check every now and then. We get inside ourselves and before you know it ,we have forgotten about all the other people in our lives that matter!
Hey one thing I've always observed in you is 'you always trying to be a part of' here... that's our strength... we keep coming back!
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
