Today has been a struggle at best. There some moments that creep in where I am soarly reminded of how much of a mess my life is. The gravity of the damage Ive created wieghs heavy on my heart. Relationship, children, employment. Y'all know the deal. Most will say, let go, move on, stay in the moment! All true and great suggestions. And then there are those who remember vividly what it felt like. I am very grateful for both. The other day I was riding with an old friend (recovery friend) and I made the comment that I was "as close to the bottom as I could get" . He looked at me in disbelief with one eye cocked. He didn't even have to say it, I knew. My emediate response was "Well, I'm as close as I want to be." Yet I had said it with such conviction that either way it meant the same to me. I am grateful that I have had the opportunity to have seen the miracle happen. Otherwise I would have given up a long time ago. I am very grateful that today, I have not wanted to use. 33 days!!!!!!!!!
weathering the storm!!!!!!!!!
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It sure is eazier to get through the moment than it is to get through the aftermath.
Say that! ANJ...CONTINUE TO REENFORCE THE 'MIRACLE OF LIFE" Just for today I will continue to strive for "gradual improvement" in all areas of my life,this allows me to "give myself a break" and know that I didnt arrive overnite and will have to continually keep workin!! Good hearing from you .talk to you on the rebound!!! Thats 33 man!!! mikef
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
