his first thing is something I have related to most my life my Papa would play his guitar and this the lyrics in which I learned to define myself:
In the yard where children Were playing games one day A little boy on crutches Was watching wistfully It seemed so hard he couldn't play Like other children do They said that he would spoil their games And was a baby too
When I go to heaven momma Will the angels let me play Because I'm just a cripple Will they say I'm in the way
Here the children never want me I'm a bother they all say When I go to heaven mommy Will the angels let me play
Now this little fellows heart was breaking in two Just because the rest of the kids Wouldn't let him play
And as he hobbled to his mom on his crutches With his eyes full of tears She heard her little cripple boy say Gosh mommy I'm so awfully tired
And then he bowed his little head Won't you rock me just a little bit mom Before I have to go to bed And gee how I wish daddy would come home Before I go to sleep Will you tell him how I waited and waited For so long mom For his kiss on my little cheek
And then that night When all was still and silent A band of angels came that way And they took this little fellow up to heaven Where he'll never never have to say Mom when I go up to heaven Won't the angels let me play
Or maybe because I'm just a kid on crutches They'll say I'm in the way You know Mom here the rest kids never want me I'm a bother they all say
So when I go up to heaven mom Don't you think that maybe Just maybe The angels will let me play
When I go to heaven momma Will the angels let me play
the attachments are also a good description of me in words that are truly potent
holy fuck you all are prolly thinking I went off the deep end this time my posts are constantly in flux as is my mind. from anger being the worst to confused scared and in love not knowing what to do I have not had the time Iwould like to have to weed thru the recent events of my life. And now it's right here inmy lap. These past couple of days have been so confusing I really need to tell my story but it involves someone else onthe board and outta respect for my privacy as well as thier I am holding a heavy burden I need some one to talk to and Iam not active in my area
-- Edited by Manon on Sunday 30th of August 2009 07:44:22 PM
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
you know I am not just angry I am hurt I was mislead betrayed served and cussed at you said you want to stay so stay you are a member when you say you are
-- Edited by Manon on Sunday 30th of August 2009 07:45:18 PM
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
One of the meditations I do Dean, is simply based on the question WHO AM I ? This implies that there are no pat answers and is a process of discovery, on a dily basis. Being clean i the first real me, then I am serene. Anything I do thats pushy, dodgy, stupid and arrogant is not the real me, that is the false character in operation. Anytime there is mischief and disturbance in my life, I know its the false character acting as Raman. These are a few things I discovered working with my sponsor and his wife about 15 years ago. And then they were gone, leaving me with the memories and lessons and Spiritual Instructions that have kept me in recovery ever since. I am very gretful to them, wherever they are, God Bless them in their recovery too !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
This thing called love I just can't handle it this thing called love I must get round to it I ain't ready Crazy little thing called love This (This Thing) called love (Called Love) It cries (Like a baby) In a cradle all night It swings (Woo Woo) It jives (Woo Woo) It shakes all over like a jelly fish, I kinda like it Crazy little thing called love
There goes my baby She knows how to Rock n' roll She drives me crazy She gives me hot and cold fever Then she leaves me in a cool cool sweat
I gotta be cool relax, get hip Get on my track's Take a back seat, hitch-hike And take a long ride on my motor bike Until I'm ready Crazy little thing called love
I gotta be cool relax, get hip Get on my track's Take a back seat, hitch-hike And take a long ride on my motor bike Until I'm ready (Ready Freddie) Crazy little thing called love
This thing called love I just can't handle it this thing called love I must get round to it I ain't ready Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love Crazy little thing called love
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Keep him in mind, touch your heart, and say "Oh powers that be, grant me the one i desire, and if it not harm the one i so desire or me, then so shoiuld it be"
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Trauma and drama is overrated...there's something to be said for balance, speaking just for self, of course...I find it hard to get addicted to balance and serenity, tho I am beginning to crave it when I feel it slipping away...very EZ to get hooked on the other states of being, I know them so well, have perfected them in fact, and I still sometimes mistake them (get seduced) for "normal". And that's not in my best interest anymore.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
I quit wishing on stars when the one I love quit talking to me by his choicce he told me he was going to leave me alone then he finds me here and demanding my attention ty for the thought tho Raman I don't believe in love anymore
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
