I am so upset!!!! I offered my assistance to a friend that is in a after care group with me... I did this wanting to encourage her to get back on the wagon... She called me last night asking me if I could put 5 dollars in her tank and I said sure she said ok well I'm going to the store I'll call you when I get back... I waited, and waited, and waited... finally she calls at 9:30 pm!!! I can't pick up and go I have a little girl already in bed!!! So then today because she didn't have gas money... I was unable to get a ride from our peer support with whom had been planned in advance!!! I'm REALLY pissed!!! I don't know if I should be or not... I am still a recent relapser my self and currently have 44 days (one day at a time) I feel like I finaly am getting my self back to sanity when BAM! Life smacks me in the face!!!! Please Help all suggestions and oppinions are welcome!! ( I just don't want to be mad anymore!)
Hi and thanks for sharing Damris, I try hard to remember I have no power or control over people, places, things and situations , only in what I do especially with resentments they are better handled by a higher power. Part of the unmanagability in my life was trying to control all the above things I mentioned and it made me a very unhappy man, once coming to terms with my powerlessness things get easier and I remain much more peaceful and serene, try it
Damaris I admire your honesty about how you feel and your willingness to hear what other recovering addicts have to say... sounds like you're right where you need to be:) Reaching out is so important and the fact that you do that is awesome...
Damaris, sounds like your friend is out running the streets again and using you. You can't want it for her, more than she does. At 45 days I'd be "sticking with the winners" and surrounding myself with solid recovering program people.
Thank you so much for saying that!!! I knew it but I guess just needed to hear it!!! BY the way I'm going to the convention tomorrow So I will be around ALL KINDS of recovery
Awesome! Stick with the winners. You will have to step over bodies all throughout your recovery. It's sad that a lot of folks aren't going to make it, but don't let that get in the way of your recovery. "It's a selfish program", take care of yourself 1st, before you commit to help others.
We admitted we were powerless over our addiction( to people too !) , that our lives have become unmanageable as a result of not only not admitting that, but every effort to control others has made life even more unmanageable !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
I am so upset!!!! I offered my assistance to a friend that is in a after care group with me... I did this wanting to encourage her to get back on the wagon... She called me last night asking me if I could put 5 dollars in her tank and I said sure she said ok well I'm going to the store I'll call you when I get back... I waited, and waited, and waited... finally she calls at 9:30 pm!!! I can't pick up and go I have a little girl already in bed!!! So then today because she didn't have gas money... I was unable to get a ride from our peer support with whom had been planned in advance!!! I'm REALLY pissed!!! I don't know if I should be or not... I am still a recent relapser my self and currently have 44 days (one day at a time) I feel like I finaly am getting my self back to sanity when BAM! Life smacks me in the face!!!! Please Help all suggestions and oppinions are welcome!! ( I just don't want to be mad anymore!)
