WOOHOO!!!! i made it a month. with a little help of treatment. but thats alright. i hope that everyone is doing good. dont forget. live day by day. minute by minute second by second and you can do it! look at me. im 17 i didnt really want to join NA but here i am clean and sober. feeling farking awesome. so if i can do then anyone out there can do it. today has been a good day. im in the best mood and i can't wait to get in that van and go to a meeting! i look forward to it everyday! i made a bunch of new friends in treatment. and my life is just so much better. so thankyou everyone here and god and my friends for helping me get to a month. my next goal is 2 months. yeah buddy. i'll to get online again soon.
THANKYOU!
-- Edited by BigV on Monday 23rd of March 2009 11:49:48 PM
If you don't mind a little experience, strength and hope from an old lady... Try living in the moment. Two months and two years and two decades will come but only one day at a time!
I'm glad you're feeling great! That is fabulous, my first 8 months in recovery sucked LOL but I got through them CLEAN. Be prepared, life shows up, keep those new recovering friends close to you, use the phone, meeting every day and when life does show up, you'll sail through it, or you'll go kicking and screaming LOL but you'll be able to do it clean so when the next pink cloud comes by, you can jump on it!
Really proud of you! Got a sponsor yet?
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The truth does not change based on my inability to stomach it - Flannery O'Connor
My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance and in inverse proportion to my expectations - Michael J. Fox
I wish I had known at the age of 17 even what being addicted meant! I was, of course, already deep in my active addiction by the age of 17 (Lord, but that seems like it was eons ago!)...
I've come to realize that my addict behavior materialized somewhere around the age of 2 years, judging by some of the memories I have. No, I wasn't getting loaded yet, however, I can clearly recall the manipulative behaviors I had even at that tender young age...like, tantrums and banging my head on the wall when I didnt get my way. I recall my first glass of wine around the age of 5 years (grew up in an Italian family...red wine at dinner every nite), my first hit of weed by 9 years, my first line of coke at 13, etc. etc...
As my using got progressively worse over the years, so did my manipulative behaviors. Of course back in those days (late 70's early 80's), I was dubbed 'uncontrollable, unruly, and unmanagable'...I was just a 'bad kid with no respect'.
The reality of it was that I had ADHD, bi-polar disorder, and a host of other inherited chemical/mental disorders that went undiagnosed - and the word 'addict' was something that was NEVER EVER mentioned, at least not in my family!
Be grateful, DG, that in your world today it's absolutely OK to not only acknowledge addiction, but that people are willing to show you how and where to get the help we all so desperately need to get through it!
You've got the World in your hands Girl...take your Recovery and run like hell with it!
