So I haven't posted in a long while.... No reason just haven't. Still working the program, keeping my service commitments, blahbitty. I keep wanting to post but I think i'm embarrassed cuz I haven't posted! what?! My whole deal with this forum brings me back to my first 6 months of recovery when I would go a couple days without calling my sponsor and think she is mad and two days became four and all of a sudden two weeks had gone by! No reason for not calling except those self-obsessed behaviors. Like my sponsor was curled in a ball on the floor waiting for my call... :) when i finally saw her two weeks later at a meeting I burst into tears.. all the fear and anxiety of not calling spewing forth. That fear is so weird. Anyway....
I actually thought about lying to you guys and telling you my internet had been down! OMG! As soon as I had that thought I'm like "oh i gotta share this..."
Glad you came back! The antidote to diseased thinking is honest sharing. BTW, I can completely relate to thinking everyone else's world will fall apart if I'm not onboard! ROFLMAO.
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The truth does not change based on my inability to stomach it - Flannery O'Connor
My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance and in inverse proportion to my expectations - Michael J. Fox
Well, it's kinda amusing, when it's someone else's story! Not to worry, Allie, u r not alone...my 2-cents worth is just read your post as tho someone else wrote it. I bet that's all it takes to get a grip and get some healthy perspective, and to STOP IT!!! LOL, in the fellowship of blessed awareness!
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
