Hey there family! My name is Allie, I'm an addict. I wish I could put into words the amazing thing that happens when I work the steps. When I start a new one the path from my head to my heart begins and it slowly makes its way down. I take awhile to do my steps due to the ever-popular character defect known as procrastination, but I just finished my sixth step so one more step and I should start flying through them. hahahaha hilarious! Anyway back to the point; its awesome when the heart aligns with the willing head and willingness ensues and recovery rages on! I freaking love this program. Thoughts on this lovely head to heart path? I notice it in my peripheral but when I try to describe it its like a dream i can see but not put into words. Thoughts?
I do agree it's is nice when things line up and we see changes being made makes the effort worth while. Right now i'm in sorta a funk not the first not the last so I get a lil negative about every thing but things do get better the longer we stay clean and continue working the program.
Glad to have you aboard breathe of fresh air each time we get someone new posting
that's so true guys... you cannot think the program and recover... you have to feel the program in order to recover... that's what my sponsor used to often tell me... sometimes, it's been my experience with working this program that the spiritual experience this program makes possible is beyond the comprehension of my limited mind if I were to employ rational thought and analyze it with my mental reasoning and logic... like the relief that I feel, the permission to relax that I experience when I accept the fact that I'm powerless over so and so, my head cannot possibly fathom on the contrary... what my head says is true, my heart shows is not necessarily so when I apply the program... my head cannot see the paradox of this program, only my heart recognizes it...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
That is awesome! Thank you Tahir. There is freedom in knowing that I don't have to always understand what is happening. I love that my heart is recognizing change and my mind can't always keep up. so cool. and better too. I don't need my mind coming in and bollixing it all up! Ha ha like thats avoidable.. It can however be arrested....
