yes my son is all ..i can think of mom thinks she is going to keep me away from my son for x mas I am marching down to the court house to hold her in contempt of court monday morning so by xmas I will be seeing my son I can give a clean UA and there is nothing NOTHING going to stand in my way watch this bitch show you what the word really means cause nowI am pissed I have talked to my son he misses me too he seems to be ok but I am noe I WANT MY CHILD!!!!!! NO ONE IS GOING TO STOP ME
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Does it feel rational Manon, are you wanting what you want right now?
I am having a very very hard time right now myself I have an infection on my leg that is really scaring me, I am supposed to go on a trip in the morning with my girl and her son but theres a lot of discomfort between her and myself some things happened today that make me question our relationship, am i being rational about concelling our trip ? I need to go see a doctor I need to talk some things out with her , I haven't slept tonight an am supposed to be up in 2 hours to go on this long trip with her and her son and I just dont feel I can handle it .
I don't know Manon I guess we both need to do some meditating today and ask for God will be done and try our best to follow that will and not our own..sorry i'm not much help.
the spirit of recovery is a very real force that works in our lives when we invite it in....any fear, doubt, suffering of any kind.....this spirit wants to help...its so hard to let go and trust that the out come will be what we want, when over and over in the literature it says that its often better than what we hoped for. my brain is where my addict lives, my thinking is distorted and in unpleasant situations i get all crazy ect. if i dont share out loud to people it gets worse, i need to talk to my sponsor and at least 3 other people i trust when things go sideways...lots of times i get a good message from higher power at a meeting, the topic will often be on whatever is bothering me....things always work out, my part can be just as simple as not picking up and dont make it worse....my 2 cents worth!
Ive been able to give a clean UA for over 6 months now. That's a miracle for me, I'M sure it is for you too. Unfortunately Society places more emphasis on the 37 years that I COULDNT give a clean UA. And with a clear mind I can see that that wreckage of my past is deserved Your a blessed person today Manon, You have a child that's being well cared for. In a warm house ,protected by things that may harm him. Surrounded by those that love him. When I hear from my children up until VERY recently the calls were from sick kids. Hoping I would send money to ease withdrawals. Or from emergency Dr's saying they had my son, they had him stable after an OD and the only thing in his pocket was my number. Trust me, You don't want those calls. I'm hoping these holidays work out well for you AND your family. And I'm believing a higher power will put both you and your son right where you need to be. Best wishes and Holiday hugs, Anthony
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Very well said, Anthony. Manon, one of the hardest lessons for me to learn in recovery is the value of "delayed gratification," as opposed to the "instant gratification" that the drugs gave me. Good things are worth waiting for, working for, and earning. "Good" things can range from anything as simple as the ability to keep an apartment and pay bills to intangibles like earning back the trust of family, friends and co-workers. I tell guys I sponsor that one of the best things they can do early on is just to SLOW down. Sometimes the very best action I can take is inaction. It takes a while, but was the beginning of my ability to recover and practice principles. Thanks for a great thread!!
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