When addiction is active,,all sorts of strange,horrible weird things are possible.
The mischief of addiction is too large to comprehend and addresss purely on an individual basis.
Therefore ,,drawing from my experience id like to volunteer what ive understood of your situation=
This answering of the question of "is it ?", or " int it ?" can be all consuming.
Im my life theres been plenty of obssession due to this,,not only because of the question but indeed due to the vagaries of the answered that come form a purely "fathomed" or"guessed" level.
To come back to simple terms,,if i was you I will ask,,inspite of any fear or reservation I may have.
Ask dear,,thats the best way to find out !!!
All the best,,and thanks for sharing.
Though for the opposite sex and in a different situation,i can understand the feelings.
Ive laterly read research which confirms that sexuality can still be a very determinig factor about how we percieve ourselves.
Our need for sex can confuse us very much when not satiated and when thoise needs are met Ive always been left with the feelin that alls well with the world.
However the use of drugs and fears of disease from sex have always complicated the mater.
And Ive always wondered why ?
Whu does it have to so complicated and all consuming ?
The relief has come only from Prayer and Meditation,, I sincierly thank God for Prayer and Meditation in the Steps.
Otherwise id only have had me confronted with my addictive personality and no clue about how to recover from it.

Thanks, Codependent, for starting a great thread.
Seems like these are similar incidents, but possibly with two very different causes. Though I've not had experience with opiates, I have experienced something like Cindy was describing. I am, of course, speaking only for myself, but I have had similar exchanges with a few ex-partners. It begins with conversation, then flirtation, kind of "seeing if they're receptive," then excitement and anticipation begin to build as euphoric recall sets in. Next, my hormones begin to take over the conversation and I commit to a rendezvous, but feel guilty about it. After I get off the phone or away from the person, I realize that in my new belief system there ain't nothing spiritual about casual sex, period. Though it always sounds tempting, fact is for me, it's just another shot of instant gratification (too much like dope). Experience shows me that afterwards I will still feel empty and lonley, and the sex is pretty meaningless and not very satisfying. After the first few disappointments, I began to back out after making a date. Today, I have pretty well learned not to allow myself to get caught up in the first place.
Just my two cents--Love Ya'll.